Tag: #careerchange

Tasting on Full: Your dreams hit different when you’re not hungry

Published March 6, 2022 by V

From the outside, it looks like I’ve got it together.

I have a promising career, the freedom I used to wish for, I’m not rich (yet) but have enough to adventure where-ever, and best of all– I have options.

Something I didn’t even know was a top priority back then.

Options might be above any dreams I could ever have, especially in terms of goals– but more on that later.

I can go anywhere from here, BUT there’s one problem… I’m still me so I’m stuck circling the block.

I thought if I had certain things, I’d be good. I figured the restlessness and boredom came from me missing these things and that it’d disappear as soon as I started living my life. Instead the mind just picks another target to chase as soon as you reach whatever you wanted and you…

… run after it.

Don’t write this off as healthy or unhealthy ambition.

It isn’t ambition at all.

This is impulsivity.

It’s boredom.

An uncontrollable brain function ghost busting phantoms.

And the real issue here is how do you make goals, how do you get ahead in life or become more than you are if you can’t trust yourself?

Goals are what develop us, and mine cause me to lose touch with everything that brought me success.

So should I not have a life of passion and fun?

That can’t be the answer.

It’s more than the grass always being greener, its like enjoying porn more than actual sex. You like dreams more than real life, and when the dream is real– you find another dream to cheat with.

The most bizarre thing about it is knowing it’s not real, but falling for it anyway… every single time, without fail.

I love California when I don’t live there— but as soon as I visit, my mind is back home– and I’m obsessing over how much better what I have is, and how the hell this shithole ever occupied my mind?

Then I get back home, aaaaaand Cali dreaming plays all over again.

It’s like I only like it when it’s not mine.

Not sure if thats true but that’s how it looks.

For the last year and a half, I’ve been trying to figure out a productive way to use this energy/ personality trait. Pretending it away or “not identifying” with it only leads to more aggressive decision making.

Trying to copy others who don’t have it leads to failure.

And those who seemingly DO have it and succeeded, can’t be copied because they haven’t conquered it.

So can’t live with it or without it.

That leaves one thing– you have to funnel it and the only thing I have is what’s right in front of me.

This isn’t about change, it’s about leverage.

If you want to succeed, you have to learn to leverage what you’re like and what game you’re most likely to win.

That’s where I’m at with it.

My career, my craft, the path before me.

I’ve got to train myself to DUMP this restlessness into my work.

If I don’t use it, it’ll use me.

It’s no different for you.

Remember– theres nothing wrong with your design, you’re just not using it right.

#FoolFwd

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Stop Worshiping Gods of War: All anger comes from Entitlement

Published March 2, 2022 by V

What do I feel like I’m entitled to, that I am not?

Heavy, right?

It turns out, that deep seated resentment, the feeling you want to combust and swallow your surroundings in your own internal raging fire… that– isn’t that deep, you’re just entitled.

To what?

I don’t know.

But for myself, the answer to the top question was immediate: success. And that’s a huge eye opener.

Realizing I’m not is liberating.

Now the answer is simple: Work. Commit to your work, and forget success– because it’s not something you deserve.

And if it wasn’t about success, and it was just about the work itself that would raise an entirely different question:

What would you become?

Our work, works on us, it shapes us and makes us. The skills you learn literally rewire the brain- so, forget the pot of gold for a sec and think about who you could be and how that person acts, behaves, and lives.

Funny enough, looking at this new question– I’m “being” exactly who I’m supposed to.

It’s not going to be clear skies from here, childhood still lingers around in our mental safe spaces.

At least now, I have an anchor.

Hope this helps you on your trail, #FOOLFWD.

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The Angel is From Hell: Why You Shouldn’t Follow Your Gut

Published March 1, 2022 by V

Desire is suffering.

You could easily fill yourself up with bullshit thoughts every second of every day and think you’re “connecting to purpose” or moving towards some vague goal.

I’ve always wanted the things that were bad for me.

I want that Entourage style life— but the irony is, moving towards it moves you away.

I can’t read my favorite author without being sucked right back into ingratitude and delusion– somehow learning about “calling” makes me reject mine.

Something inspirational invokes bad decision making.

But despite my shortcomings, I have figured out how to move forward and succeed in a near guaranteed way.

Instead of looking at where you want to be, go, or build– look at where you get returns.

And double- triple, down on that.

Somehow, my dreams are fused with this overactive, out of control, muscle in my brain. This muscle is responsible for all the chaos I create– it has its ups but more downs, and since its so over developed, my task (and yours for whatever your imbalances are) is to move away from it.

Failure comes from this invisible force.

This muscle is so strong, you won’t see it— rather, you operate automatically under it. And yet, like a bored God who enjoys watching reruns, it sits there stirring up THE SAME kind of trouble, for you to keep reliving that same obstacle all throughout life.

Our struggles don’t change, and that’s because the angel on your shoulder likes phucking with you.

The irony– WE WERE NEVER INTENDED TO FOLLOW IT.

You have to leave the garden, and water the plants right in front of you. There is no paradise, there is one life, your life– which is built.

As soon as you escape delusion, reality rewards you.

The only way to do this is rebalance the mind. And to do that– you have to move away from the thing that causes delusion in the first place, your natural strengths.

If you’re great at connecting with others, constantly putting them first, even fulfilled by solving their life problems– you likely give nothing to yourself, since nothing is left.

How does one move away from this angel?

By giving time back to yourself, and quit making excuses that you can’t.

This is a game of centimeters.

Start with 15 minutes a day.

Feed yourself– read things you’re curious to learn, develop a skill, journal. This is how it starts, you have to start small.

If you keep making excuses that you need some conditions met before you work on your problems, you’ll piss away your entire life and wonder where it went.

We have to do it immediately.

For those with a brain similar to mine, our call is that of adventure. You’ll hear whispers of “Go here” “start this business” “Be rich and famous” — all dumpster trash garbage advice.

Move away by moving towards skills (and practice stoicism you ungrateful-fuk).

Build where you are, and anytime you’re carried away– train yourself to lean in.

When we’re born, we’re born with a companion. This companion is disguised as an angel and sits at the center of our brain. They drive us.

Your task it to throw that little bitch in the backseat and take hold of the wheel.

So, Start today.

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Signs you’ve reach the end of this level & what’s next?

Published February 27, 2022 by V

Too often, we assume somethings wrong with us.

We should be happy, but instead you feel a tinge of resentment towards your own circle. It’s subtle.

Maybe now, you’re looking at recreational drugs, distractions with weekend getaways, casual sex with strangers, etc. You wanna fill the hole.

But we don’t ever think it’s just this level, you’ve reached its end and now you need to move on.

A lot of our desires disappear when we’re facing anything new. Throw yourself in uncharted territory and a lot of your own demons disappear too.

Theres no such thing as stuck.

You don’t have to be here.

Most of my problems are summed up by this– I stop progressing and I immediately feel all the bad shit that comes with it.

If you need to switch careers, do it. Move states, do it. Take on new hobbies, dew– it.

Life rewards momentum and punishes stillness.

Don’t overthink it.

If you feel off, it’s data– you need to change the scenery.

#FOOLON

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Worker Bees Serve Single Missions

Published February 25, 2022 by V

Ambitious type?

If fulfillment comes from waking your dreams and conquering your ambitions– theres something you should keep in mind.

As soon as something is built up to the point of — got to have it, you become a different type of vulnerable.

Desire is a contract, and we down payment our happiness to pursue our dreams.

Theres nothing wrong with it, but there are better ways.

You can’t want the thing AND be engaged in the now, that only works if you love the process. And I don’t mean find a process you love, I mean create a more enjoyable process NOW, before you find your thing.

I never thought anything wrong with delayed happiness and fulfillment.

But people started dropping like flies.

Well, I started noticing.

I used to think life wasn’t worth anything if I couldn’t have what I wanted… dumbass. Since then, I’ve decided to commit to bringing the play into what I’ve got.

It’s all temporary, you don’t need to hear that but you’ll never know it enough.

There is a chance your dream life never happens and there is a chance you DO get what you want… and it destroys you.

Either way, who will you show up as?

I’m not going to “power through” and miss it all.

PHUCK IT.

Regardless of what this choose your own adventure turns out to be, I choose to lean in.

#FOOLFWD

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Busy > Bored… if you’re like this

Published February 23, 2022 by V

I should never have free time.

A conversation with a friend finally simplified and made tangible my spiritual problem– I can’t be bored.

I do very stupid things out of restlessness, and those urges only ever pop up when I’m not engaged with my own work and life.

So, rather than follow the focus-preneurs who teach the art of tripling down on one thing, I’m going the opposite direction.

Multiple hats in a day.

I NEED variety.

It’s my only tether to the present.

My advice for you is this: Watch yourself. Study yourself. Observe like a scientist.

You have to understand what makes you do the things you do, you have to know your triggers– it’s the only way to get ahead.

I know given any extra time, my mind looks to push eject out of monotony and send me into some fantastical delusion.

AND That’s where pain and failure lives– divorced from reality.

You can’t wish away your wiring, but you can change the environment to reward it.

#FOOLFWD

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How Discipline Ruins You & The Better Alternative

Published February 22, 2022 by V

First, it’s important to note– you are wired a specific way and understanding that is the most important thing before committing to anything.

Now, I’m going to share my wired-struggle and how I’m leveraging it into productivity and life.

I hate using my “personality type” because it feels equivalent to saying I’m a Taurus and we’re too stubborn to learn. Often, it’s nothing but an empty and limiting belief you chain yourself up to and end up living out.

But there is truth to understanding REAL quirks in your particular brain.

For example, no matter what I’m doing or where I am, my brain looks for the next BIG thing. That might sound good on paper, but it has a bipolar navigation attached to it.

One day I’m all in on my writing, the next I’m off to try (insert new different cooler better thing).

I sabotage myself regularly, in the name of desire.

Which never lasts and leads to failure.

I can’t watch entrepreneurial videos without wanting to cut my shit off in that same moment and instantly chase that new shiny opportunity. If I see people moving to a hot new state with tons of action– I’m instantly tempted to move on a whim and quit everything I have going on.

I do this so fast, I don’t notice til I’ve paid the price of impulsivity.

My brain is the little brother, who wants whatever cooler thing big brother does.

And I ALWAYS FAIL WHEN I CHASE THIS IMPULSE.

But what can I do?

Buckle down and resist– that just leads to an explosion down the line and probably and even bigger one, thanks to storing and building up energy.

Instead, you have to channel whatever curse you’re born to.

If my little brother brain can’t stop doing this scan and go thing, I need to funnel it into some craft, and by draining it, it’ll have less hold over me in my life.

THAT’S WHAT NO ONE TELLS YOU ABOUT LIFE.

The only real “mentors” you can follow are those that won YOUR same war. Otherwise, you’ll die in battle as another pawn.

Rather than disciplining and saying “no” to a muscle or quirk that has so much control over you, leverage it into something like your craft or career. Find things that rely on what you have, otherwise you’ll always start over at the mercy of your own brain.

What you resist persists, so embrace it and use it.

#FOOLFWD

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Even Now, I still do the thing…

Published February 21, 2022 by V

It’s hard as shit for me to not grass-is-greener my life.

I know if I stay fully committed to the things in front of me, success is guaranteed– might not be what you imagined, but you’ll go far.

Reality usually finds you sitting on a park bench, and that’s where you realize:

I don’t have any real problems.

I’m lucky.

I get to pursue my dreams, goals, and aspirations.

I get to be dissatisfied and wanting more.

I preach attitude a lot, because with it you’ll create opportunity out of the mundane, and everything eventually becomes mundane.

This post is a reminder to self– that idea that something out there is more exciting is a false one. You bring the excitement with your approach. There is no place to go to and just randomly live a cocaine fueled choose your own adventure movie.

Also, I’m kinda starting to hate the concept of life being a movie, I’ll switch to game.

In a game, you play and need to level up.

In a movie, you need an exciting story…. and building isn’t.

The point here?

Whatever you have, you make more out of it by embracing it and leaning in– not looking over at others, or escaping.

How do you make what you have better?

#FOOLFWD

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Why You Will or Won’t Succeed… (not about definitions) ?

Published February 20, 2022 by V

When you finally understand the unchangeable aspects of who you are– it’s laughable looking back at what you thought you could do.

First, let me start with this:

If you’re looking for something, (new career, move, friend groups, whatever) start with the process of elimination NOT addition.

What’s in your life right now, that if removed, would dramatically improve your everyday experiences?

The NON- successful negotiate what wasn’t up for debate and don’t the things that don’t matter.

There ought to be a book for this, fine… I’ll write it in the future.

For now, you have to understand your character is responsible for everything in your life. If your life is maximizing your character, you’ll win. If not, you’ll lose.

It sounds so simple you probably think you’re doing this.

But it has to account for everything, free of guilt. You are who you are, and you need to channel it into your every day.

I used to see myself as ultra adaptable. Smooth. Charming. An overall pleasure to be around. I’m not joking either, BUT journaling and documenting myself throughout the years, along with having real friends– has outlined my reality.

The truth is I’m aggressive, blunt, overly competitive, despise rules and procedures, put myself first, and think that I always have the best solutions.

So how the phuck did I think I could go and play industry games as a writer or producer?

I didn’t know myself enough.

But now, it’s a different story.

Since I have a cancel-able face, I’m building my OWN brand and multiple income streams. That’s the only real option for how the hell I am.

And this is your task.

Where would your character thrive?

What are things you do every single day, that are not being used? This is 🔑

It’s what you can’t help but do, that needs to be brought to the surface and built around.

Wanna succeed in every aspect? Embrace yourself, become your number 1 fan, and be ruthless with what you allow for your life.

#FOOLFWD

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What turning down clients has taught me about non-negotiation

Published February 19, 2022 by V

I get excited too easily.

That might not sound like a problem, but it’s influenced me in making unwise short term decisions.

I used to say yes to every opportunity just to get more juice out of every squeeze, then later, I’d wonder why I had the strongest urge to cut everything off.

In truth, I never cared about most things.

Not in a cool stoic way either.

How thinking about “Purpose” F**k’d me Up & What I do Instead

Published February 18, 2022 by V

No doubt, humans need to move towards something.

Without a destination to trek across our own lifespans, we become gooey blobs of waste– floating around and filling our days with vice and empty pleasure.

Purpose is often prescribed.

The Simon Sinek “Why” of your life (basically, if you know your why for doing what you do, life yields to you).

Let me be fair– false purpose is a thing. Pursuing something you think is your calling (like money and fame) to satisfy ego shouldn’t be confused with genuine destiny.

But back to why I think purpose is overrated and at the same time– floating through life is also gross.

I missed opportunities to grow and evolve thinking about purpose.

About that purposeful energy so many books recommend you absorb? I was born with it, and a lot of it.

Maybe thats unusual.

But I’d go through schooling with ultra binary thinking.

Say I had crush, if you aren’t somehow related to what I thought my destiny was at the time, I didn’t waste time with you.

I couldn’t see the point.

I did this with everything.

If something didn’t lead to what I believed to be my purpose at the time (which was just a vague idea of greatness) I cut you out.

This, as you can imagine, subtracted most life experiences, and no I didn’t care. To me, it was worth it because I thought it’d lead to said greatness.

But then something happened.

I was about to graduate and before I did, as a way of saying goodbye, I let go of the idea of purpose for my final year.

And the result? I had the best year of my life.

I made tons of connections, was in a constant state of play, did fun shit, and created with friends every single day.

For the first time in my life, I was fulfilled and the inside emptiness was gone.

But I was still purposeful in mind and even though that was the absolute best year of my life, as soon as the expiration date came and I graduated– I left it cold, to go me– the false chosen one.

All to return to “purpose.”

AND WHEN I FINALLY DID, what happened?

Depression. Isolation. And funny enough? No phucking purpose, loser.

Whatever your unique calling is, you reach it through a state of play and openness, not some all too serious disciplined soldier who can’t lighten up.

Your answer is different from mine, no doubt.

But the pattern I noticed is the tighter we squeeze onto “purpose” or whatever you think you need– the less likely you are to ever reach it.

There is a letting go factor life rewards.

Instead of purpose, focus on process. Maximize your day with shit you enjoy doing, learning, and experiencing.

This will throw you years ahead.

And eventually, you’ll discover it.

#FoolFwd

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The New World Order: Guilt is for society, I play how I want

Published February 17, 2022 by V

You don’t have to love everything you do, I’ll concede to that.

But when it comes to your business– it should be toddler like when you reject the broccoli train forcefully invading your lips.

It’s going to be hard and the only way to sustain your efforts is to enjoy the process itself.

Which is why I don’t have guilt.

I try things out, don’t like them– then cut them out and never think about them ever again.

Others will shame you. Try to tell you it’s wrong, and stick longer, but why? Just because it takes you less time to figure out you don’t like it, doesn’t mean you might have fallen in love tomorrow had you stuck it out.

In reality, you’re at an advantage.

At least you won’t be stuck rat racing and tail chasing for 50 years to suddenly have a surprise crash followed by a fun identity crisis.

The game is a simple one and if we didn’t complicate ourselves and how important we think everything is, it’d be easy too.

We have to do things we don’t love, cool. I get that. So, take a job that at least covers some of your values– i.e. the company culture matches your personality. Now, it’ll be easier to have better days.

On the side, whatever you choose to build, that’s treated different.

YOU HAVE TO LOVE IT.

From exploring and taking on different clients, throughout my side hustling, I’ve learned so much about what I don’t want– and that informs what I do.

This is the key.

Try things, and move on fast when you realize you don’t like them.

With movement, you’ll land on your thing.

P.S. Oh, and remember nothing lasts and nothing matters. Find yourself stuck in a rut? Do something scary (I went skydiving) that you kinda want to do.

#FOOLFWD

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Rules of Your Game: The human being instruction manual no one talks about

Published February 16, 2022 by V

There are somethings that’ll never change.

You, for example, won’t and that’s a good thing.

I’m not talking about dumb habits or new mindsets, that’s not important and has nothing to do with character– which is something much deeper than you can imagine.

Thing is, you have good days and bad– but what defines these is your inborn values.

When we’re living our values, we wonder how life got to be so phucking awesome AND when we’re breaking the code– we feel like internally combusting.

The point?

Don’t be a narcissist.

You didn’t build your human (or maybe you did, but thats pre-life shit).

You are who you are, and you value what you value– so the point of it all is to know this so deeply, that you know how to apply it situationally to get ahead.

When you’re applying for a new career– you can filter it online. You can customize settings for a specific field, amount of money, location, etc.

Well, that’s what this personal lawbook is, your code.

It’s your filter– to be applied to everything. Careers, locations, relationships, etc.

Your task, first identify in a notebook or however the hell you introspect:

What made your best day? (what do all your most enjoyable days have in common? What were you doing? Who were you with?)
What made your worst? (Here’s where you broke your code– find out which one).

In answering these questions, you’ll have an outline, which is all you need for now. Write it down and keep it handy. You’ll add to it as you observe yourself.

This is your human instruction manual.

And it’s how you’ll live a phucking awesome life.

Oh and remember, nothing matters.

#FOOLFWD

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Why people get weird about “process”

Published February 15, 2022 by V

There isn’t another way to reach your goals, it’ll always be long initially.

The single greatest determining factor will come down to persistence– a word I used to hate; In short: You’ll need a process.

First, you need to understand your personality. Know where and how you operate best, and then leverage that by creating a process that supports your nature.

This is how you maximize chances of success.

I suck with long term goals– I’m impulsive, switch up fast, and always attracted to shiny object opportunities.

Trying to change that is pointless– it’d end in misery.

So instead, I keep goals short.

I keep them related to what I’m naturally good at– because that’d be harder for me to leave.

The role I’m in now is very related to the goal I’m pursuing. The work and the clients I take on– it’s the exact same thing. I’ll always feel like leaving but because this is so closely related to my character, I never do.

That’s the key.

What can you do on a long enough timeline and still enjoy?

That’s process– you have to find fulfillment in it and not the end goal. Otherwise, you’ll constantly put off happiness and if you don’t succeed– it was all for nothing.

My whole MO now is to inject joy into my day to day. If it’s unbearably boring, make it fun. Figure it out– enjoyment is a practice.

As you move towards your goals, don’t forget to play on your way there.

#FOOLFWD

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The Blind Lead The Mind…

Published February 14, 2022 by V

Life IS what you make it, but your mind isn’t a friend to you.

This is probably the best and most important way of thinking about the brain. When we overreact, or “grow” paranoid, it’s us allowing the mind to lead us— and the mind is a shitty leader.

“Instinct” has to be one of the worst excuses for not knowing why you do or don’t do some things.

We automatically trust our mind, and that’s a mistake.

I use mbti to overcome delusion, you can use whatever you want– the only catch is it has to work during the moment. Here’s what I mean:

I’m an entp.

And Ne (leader function of the brain) SUX.

Ne loves different– it likes it so much that even when my life is awesome it plays the internal movie of me moving to another state, partying, closing big money deals, and living my movie devoid of any buffering or commercial breaks.

Following Ne has only led to failure.

Because I need to BUILD to get ahead in life, which I’m doing, and every single time I’ve done that– I get ahead.

So, when I catch myself doing the, “I need to move” “I need excitement” “this aint living” — I remind myself:

Dipshit, that’s Ne overreacting again, don’t fall for it.

And I’m free of it in that moment. Even if the movie still plays it, it has no hold over me.

This is key for all of us.

You need a way to step outside of your minds hold. Understanding it and having clear cut terms is the best way I know how.

By knowing that it’s Ne playing me, and not me, I’m able to overcome it.

Understanding where your mind does this is key.

Don’t believe everything you feel, that’s the first step. Also– if personality types and psychology has more demand, I’ll explore that for you all here.

Til next time, #FOOLFWD

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Where do you get the most returns?

Published February 13, 2022 by V

I’m not one to tell you to pay attention to crop circles or notice the patterns around the globe— whatever that means.

But there is something to be said about where each of us gets returns in life…

… forget what you’re drawn to for a sec.

Notice what’s drawn to you.

For no reason at all, I thought I wanted to be involved with movies and art. Nope, I didn’t have a passion for these things. No– I didn’t study these topics or create things in my spare time, and it wasn’t even an intellectual curiosity.

Like a kid in the backseat driving passed McDonalds, at some point after seeing it– my mind wouldn’t let it go.

But I did, after enough failure and when I did I naturally got returns in the field I’m in… it sort of just came together around me and without me.

THIS IS WHERE PEOPLE ERR.

Don’t leave the thing you get returns on for something you think you want.

Media, advertising, and marketing unfolded for me. I didn’t force it, or try to make it happen. I did take daily action and it turned into this– but it could have turned into anything, what made it go this route?

Your own nature has a map.

Without sounding hokey, no two people will share the same path, even if they’re trying to. It just turns out different because we’re different.

Instead of trying to force the path, pay attention to where things happen for you. Where do you get returns, what comes naturally?

When you single step onto it– it’ll unfold.

That’s how you’ll know.

Til next time, #FOOLFWD

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Beyond your circle ⭕️

Published February 12, 2022 by V

What are you moving towards?

Dear Fool,

If there was ever a life philosophy that had nearly universal benefits to each individual who practiced it– it’d be movement.

We need to be moving towards something, otherwise– we expire (not die, but you know– complacency, boredom, pain and misery, resentment, all the hello-darkness-my-old-friend stuff).

They say you can’t outrun your problems, — and this must be the greatest lie ever told.

You literally can.

Problems only hold you when you’re still.

If you keep moving, you’ll make a way.

This raises the question: What are you moving towards right now?

A lot of us are stuck running circles. Wake up, force shit down out mouths– out our bowls, out the door, and back through it. Then you say you have anxiety and wonder why…

…

Call that living?

It doesn’t matter what your beliefs, you can see it as purpose, imagine it as destiny, attract it as a universal law– just don’t get hung up on the alphabet soup of it.

Jesus rewards do-ers.

Whatever your religion, edit movement into it.

Now, some of you may be thinking, “that’s great, but where the hell am I going?”

And to that I’d say– it MATTERS NOT.

You can go wherever, you’re not supposed to “know” exactly where. Just start moving, and you’ll discover side routes that attract you.

And that becomes the path.

Movement is living.

Sincerely,

— Future You (who is more successful and better looking) 🙂

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Unifying the headless body with the bodyless head

Published February 11, 2022 by V

When you approach the sword unworthy, even if you’re tomorrows chosen one, you’ll fail to pull it from the stone— today.

I stay away from ginormous goals.

They’re empty, and yes I still want them.

–But I’m not there so moving towards them prematurely would throw away my progress.

You want the low hanging fruit, initially.

The thing I’m doing differently now is building where I am, as I am. If you lose connection with reality, you lose connection to success.

And anything not in reach is hard to create.

You already know what’s missing in your life– adding in that thing will be what makes the difference. I want fluidity, less anxiety and rushing, more play and skill.

That’s what I mean by unifying.

It’s like those times you could do a trick in a particular sport, you don’t know how you know to do it and when someone asks you to teach them– suddenly you forget to do it. But when you’re flowing– the body moves free of the mind.

That’s what I’m after.

Fluidity.

You may not have this, maybe for you it’s the mind and considering things first– we all lean one way or the other.

But becoming a unified individual is what will bring us fulfillment and individual power.

How do you do this?

Move towards the opposite direction.

Day by Day.

#FOOLFWD

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Wild Fox: I have something inside of me I don’t know what to do with…

Published February 10, 2022 by V

We’re all a lot more complex than we appear, some more than others. But for a long time I’ve struggled with reconciling something I was always too familiar with– kurama.

I’ve taken the concept from a popular anime series to better explain and understand it, but it’s very real.

I’m talking about your shadow– each one of us has one, but you have to step into the sun and look down to see it.

I’ve tried everything to outrun mine.

Pretend it away, seal it (repressing it), direct it outward in physical activity, channel it creatively, and now, exhausted but with slightly more understanding…. integrate.

In real life, Kurama isn’t something that covers your body with chakra and wins fights for you— that’d be the shit, but in real life IT SUCKS. It’s more like a parasite feeding off and draining the host. If you’ve ever seen the series Mr.Robot, I’d say Elliot has a solid grasp on what it is– well, grasped by what it is.

It’s enough inner conflict to split the person in two, that’s what it’s like. A pair of twins who never work together… and fight over every little thing.

So, it’d be helpful to think of yourself as a community– rather than an individual. To make it more interesting, your community is full of members with conflicting goals, personalities, and approaches.

You’re never at ease, always tense.

The difference between you and I isn’t that you don’t have one, but that you haven’t seen it.

This is what comes over me and wants to destroy everything in my life. This is what causes me to change lenses in how I see others and the world, this is what isolates and imprisons me– and if you struggle with yours, it’s no different for you.

How do you free yourself of the wild fox?

By letting it run in some meadow, not over you.

Who we are is who we are. You can sit there and hate it, but that will only thicken the shadow and separate you further… which you don’t want. That’s how you create the dynamic of the fox feeding off you.

What you resist persists, we have to embrace it.

There is power here, if you can master the energy. It’s a lot of energy. No doubt, if tamed– you’ll be able to crush goals, outlast competitors, move faster, theres really no limit.

But so few master themselves, where would you even start?

Seeing it. We have to see it, and understand it as something apart of us, but different from us. That distance will help direct it.

And then figure out your medium. We’re all built for something– some will have wild foxes built for running, fighting, writing, art, never stop looking for your field. For you, it’s even more important than anyone else.

You’ll never be able to sit and just chill.

You’ll never just be cool with it.

Finding this field will be the most important thing you ever do for yourself.

And don’t make the mistake of thinking it has to do something with your job, career, hobby, relationship.

It’s yours alone, the only qualifier is that you can pour into it– and on your own.

The energy is there for a reason, might as well embrace it. #FOOLFWD

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Favorite vs Best: How will you play your games?

Published February 9, 2022 by V

Some of us are too good at limiting ourselves.

We use language like, “that’s not me” or “I can’t” —and I’m not one of those people who will tell you anything is possible.

That’s bullshit, and yeah– not everything is for everyone, that’s why you have to know thyself.

But when it comes to career, friends, important decision-making like where you live, that’s pretty simple.

Want to be your best self or your favorite?

Let me rephrase from where I stand: Phuck “best self”.

It isn’t real.

That’s the voice of childhood conditioning floating in your head, judging you and keeping you in mediocrity.

Play however you want to play, play as your favorite.

To me– this means NEVER allowing myself to feel bad over everyday stresses.

All of this is for nothing, we’re the ones who make it worth what it is. When I’m laying on my deathbed, I want to look back and see a full life. That’s my call, you chase what does it for you.

Get going, #FOOLFWD

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