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Careless Ambition: The counterintuitive attitude for success in life

Published January 27, 2022 by V

It’s still a mystery to me.

The fact that we become basically more intelligent, smooth, quick on our feet, and better problem solvers…

… when we don’t care?

No one likes a try hard, especially not the school of life.

As soon as something MUST happen or you NEED it to happen, the glands in the human body produce the desperation hormone— and the universe dodges you like you sent it a horrifying sext message.

It’s science, if you’re desperate– nothing but failure will touch you.

Then theres the reward of openness. No phucking idea why this is a thing but heres what I’ve observed.

When I needed to know where I was going and what my purpose in life was— do you have any idea how far removed I became? Figuratively and Literally. My death grip led to material divorce, and she (the universe) took everything.

So, Why— when I stopped giving a shit, casual success rained over me and things played out far better than I could have imagined?

I think it’s less magical than we imagine.

Play boosts our creativity, and the state of play is openness. At the same time, if we’re overly attached to the end goal, we’re not open enough to adapt with the changes on the way to that goal.

You’ve heard them say, “love the process.”

The reason is it’s literally what will keep you going. Your journey is random, it’s supposed to be. There will be trolls, treasures, triumphs, and tragedies. If you only care about the end, you’ll find yourself pissed off all the time.

Mainly because, you’re delaying winning til you score.

Everything you come across will be a distraction, rather than an opportunity.

When I let go, I was free to try a bunch of other shit. The random things led to my success, not the planned ambitions.

If you want to succeed, do the things you’d do– just to do.

And stop giving a shit– this is the hardest one. But if you can do this, while still pursuing a better life, you become this alpha upgraded human being.

And then succeed.

I guess it’s a universal law: Be ambitious and have drive, but don’t let it take your play. Maybe thats the answer to the universe, its the lesson I need.

#FOOLForward.

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Cancel Culture Cultivator: EGO

Published January 13, 2022 by V

This time the algorithm went too far.

You all know the game. Mindlessly open youtube and continue the practiced ritual of surrendering to the internet powers that be.

Ever see one of those rise and fall videos? Basically, they cover celebrities who made it, then through the perils of fame— lost it all. Many of whom, lost a lot more than money.

It’s cringe to watch.

But as a devoted student of human nature, I felt compelled to learn from their nevermore life experiences.

Deep down, I always wanted fame.

And I know, It’s an empty pursuit, it’ll never make u happy, it doesn’t fill the emptiness— yeah I get all that Edgar Allen Poet.

I know its superficial and it only appeals to my grandiosity.

But life is short, and given my personality– it’d be a fun way to pass the time.

So this post, is more of a reminder for why I’ll need certain things in place to keep me from being in one of those YouTube videos.

The way I see it, these individuals fell from grace not because of ego, but because of a lack of channeling it properly.

They didn’t have an outlet to commit to other than the attention, so fame became they’re one and only. And that leads to the whole, “I’m awesome because I’m me” which is as dangerous as it gets.

A healthier alternative would be commitment to a skill. Sounds lame, doesn’t it?

It kinda is. But this is the only way to never lose the power one may gain:

Mastery.

A lot of our spiritual emptiness can be chalked up to disconnection from our work. Our brains are wired for mastery, and today— we have none.

The people who fell, lost the thing that brought them initial success (skill). So, in an effort to get it back they try to outdo old habits and end up being attention seeking and obnoxious.

To fill the emptiness, we end up jumping from new thing to thing to restart. And with money and fame, this can be fun for a little while (I’ll let you know). But we still need something to hold us down—

Especially when we rebound.

When the high is over, where the hell will you land?

Hopefully not rock bottom.

The answer here is a balanced diet.

I’m not cutting out either, I’m cutting in both.

You don’t have to choose one thing– you just have prioritize how you define yourself. I’m not switching up, I’ll have that rockstar life. BUT, now I’ll make sure there is constant improvement and refinement over my craft.

We are all transformed through our work.

The only thing that can actually cancel your success is ego. So, tie it to the right thing.

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You only see what you think about…

Published December 31, 2021 by V

Get out of your head and into your bed… with that stallion.

The real challenge of the human experience is understanding that you exist in your mind, and vacating the premises is the only way to reach your dreams.

You don’t see reality, and who cares because no one does. The only reason this matters and why you need to change –is that dream life.

If you haven’t totally given up on yourself, somewhere in that hard cranium of yours, there is a faint aroma. It’s hard to notice at first, but if you plug your nose and refresh the scentblind, you’ll catch wiff of it.

Your dreams.

You used to have those, but now every adult you know says “I don’t dream anymore.” A bunch of pathetic pickles in the jar of mediocrity.

Anyway, to live those old or new dreams of a fulfilling life full of adventure and awesomeness is actually easy.

It’s a two stepper.

First, realize everything you see and experience is your old conditioning. Socialization, culture, parents, you see whats in you_ not what actually is (that underscore is my artistry not a typo, u grammar nazi). You have to know this in order to catch yourself doing it, and then leave it behind.

Second, attitude booster shot.

You have to approach the world like a child, playful and to some extent, uncaring.

Judgement is a restricting emotion, it stops you from connecting— and connecting is how you unlock your version of neverland.

It’s so easy even I’ve been able to do it. What makes it hard is not falling back in your old moods, which you will. Imagine who you want to be, how you live and what experiences you want to have.

No matter how hard it is, live as that person.

The world will match you and give you the life that individual needs.

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I Shot My Angel In a Place of Worship…

Published November 21, 2021 by V

When I pray, I become prey.

Vulnerability is strength but not yours.

What if the “right” shoulder isn’t the right one to turn to? You’re probably familiar with the angel and devil on the shoulder concept, but angel in real life is who you should be afraid of.

The things we habitually do, those are the things that phuck us up. It’s not the risks we think of taking, or the new paths we might try, no. It’s our bullshit saviors (more on that in a bit).

If you want to get ahead in life– you have to shoot your angel. Everyones will look different too, so how can you be sure?

Your angel is a self-protecting, elbow-hugging, delusion thriving, karen-type-of-parent, who used to exist to keep you safe. But safe is no longer sound, especially for personal growth.

So let’s get practical.

How and Why did I shoot my Angel?

First, heres a little bit about the fucker. My angel, if you’re familiar with mbti is Ne. Think of it as a muscle in the brain that is overdeveloped, which means for the most part you can’t see yourself using it.

And I never did.

Ne is a consuming function. It has me waking up at 3 am to search the internet and read up on human behavior. Random things about things– a jerk off muscle that likes patterns and is against building. The problem is not the muscle itself, but by overusing it– you starve the other muscles, and that spells DOOM.

Ne doesn’t build shit.

The more opportunities I see in the world, the more I keep seeing and want to chase. This creates a never ending loop of never building shit.

After years, only then could I see I did this. It took being typed by professionals who first made me aware of this, then my friend who sent me all of our texts– where I could see my random all over the place thinking day by day.

It was a level of cringe that makes you want to cover yourself up.

And after having my mind blown seeing how I actually am for the first time, I loaded up the holy trinity and laid out my angel.

I stopped listening.

I stopped believing in my natural responses.

They’re not real.

And then all of a sudden Morpheus appeared, and offered me some color coded drugs…

But without an angel what the hell do you do? For all of us, it’s about developing your neglected functions. For me, it’s sitting and building. For you, it might be developing yourself– skills, and learning.

It’s different for all of us, and its hard to learn what it is.

What kicked all this off was journaling, you have to start there. Even if it’s not writing, record. Find a way to track yourself and then you’ll see.

You’ll see the delusional games the mind plays.

And only then, can you get ahead in life– because success is about seeing reality.

The Universe rewards those who play in real life, so get out of your head. Good luck, happy Angel Hunting.

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Objective Reality Says You Suck, Now What?

Published November 20, 2021 by V

This is what it feels like to have your mind blown.

For the first time in my life, I saw objective reality. Me, not as I imagine, not as I want to be, but as I am.

And I am what I so disliked about certain “other people”. The over-blasting, over consuming, extrovert– who, rather than building one thing and focusing, just mind jerks all over the place with fictional cunning schemes that will never happen.

Crazy.

I can’t believe how easily I fell for it.

But my concern right now is how to get better of it. What we know is this, it’s automatic. Triggered by bullshit ideas of success– thats the why. For some its curiosity (person who I never want to be like) for you it’s success. Why doesn’t matter, we have different drivers, but the same personality.

I encourage you to meet with yourself. You probably already have, and haven’t noticed. That’s really what kicked all this off. A few years back, before I was a writer and had anything going for me– I met this individual in one of my College Literature classes.

He was A LOT like me, only much older. In a way, it was like meeting future me. At the time, I didn’t want to see it– especially since I saw this individual as a loser. He even warned me, mostly with advice of what I’ll want to do and put in place to ensure my life is a success, I didn’t listen.

This guy was annoying.

He thought he was smarter than everyone, always debated others, and always had some new scheme to make money– that he would never actually follow through with.

He was all over the place, all the time.

The only reason I hung out with him was because despite being a manchild, he was intelligent. He never took things personal, was playful, and could laugh at himself and others, while still being objective.

I remember thinking what a waste, someone bright who can’t stick to something to save their life.

That was years ago, but only a week ago– I looked just like him.

He was right, and I was wrong. We’re A LOT alike and just the other day I saw it. I saw myself exactly as I am, no different from him.

For a brief moment, I might as well have been him.

I overcame the psychological immune system and was initiated into objective reality. And whats reality say?

You kinda suck.

You’re all over the place, always going on flights of fantasy, always imagining something new to entertain that restless nature.

You are the version of your type that you can’t be.

Which is great. Wholeheartedly, this is great. Now that I see, I can get better of it. And the answer was what I found before, but it’s far easier to stick with the certainty of reality guaranteeing failure if I don’t.

Mastery is and always will be the only answer.

Time + Skills > Dreams = Success

Doing whats in front of you, and going all in.

That mind-blow job was exactly what I needed because scarier than boredom, is becoming someone who can never build.

And that was the only real threat for me.

Wanna see yours?

It’s the person you cringe around the most…

look.

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Follow Your Spirit Guide And Be Lost Forever 👌

Published November 15, 2021 by V

The human being is a superstitious species.

When we’re not using science to excuse our own pathetic weaknesses, we’re dismissing it– protesting how little everyone knows about the universe: “We’re on a floating rock, dude.”

The more of an outsider you are, the better you’ll understand the insiders… not agree, just understand (understanding is what leads to success, more on that later).

AND today It would seem like theres a ton of outsiders, so why do so many people sound dumb as rocks? Well, because they are.

Just hear me out. To grow and evolve, you have to test your own ideas and assumptions about the world– and most of you won’t. Somehow you’re pathetically afraid of being wrong about existence, our creator, and the why behind us being alive.

Ironic.

So, let me leave exit the abstract and make my point:

You’re lost because you follow your Spirit Guide.

Your autopilot, the way you act without thinking, the things you automatically do, assume, feel, and how you approach situations– are all TRASH.

It’s as true for me as it is for you, and every single one of us.

This is the real battle of the human being. Rest knowing it ain’t democrats or republicans– no one is chasing you. You barely exist, so how can the things you invent be real?

Your internal war is this one– illusions. It’s you figuring out your guide is an evil loser who stops you from seeing reality, and your job is to return to the land of actuality… without winged baby bitch.

How?

Well, assuming you like the idea of living a successful and productive life– you’ll need to do the hardest thing yet.

Leave your guide.

Your default is your fault.

Starve them.

Test every natural assumption and document what works and doesn’t. It’s annoying, but journaling is the easiest way to see reality. You suck in your head, you need something to track data and keep you tethered.

Try it.

And win the war.

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Cigarette Smoking Drama Students

Published November 5, 2021 by V

You know the type. Social outcasts, everything is “Lame, dude” and their version of excitement is blasting hard metal while laying flat, poured over a meadow.

Each of us has this. Even if you weren’t this person in high school– it’s in you.

We’re in love with our inner goth.

I’ve been learning about personality types recently, and how to overcome oneself. The way they teach this is your brain has different muscles responsible for different things.

Some muscles are overdeveloped, while others are nearly nonexistent. Your overdeveloped muscles are the problem. The reason you keep having the same recurring life obstacles is because you don’t address this inner imbalance— the inner goth.

Your go-to way of living is using that over-developed muscle. Think of that as your “inner popular kid” or jock.

Given a choice between jock or goth, most without thinking will jocko every time. Problem is, gotho is what leads to building.

If for example, you’re some ultra extrovert, always out and about, hanging, eventually you have to pull back and be alone… at least some of the time. Otherwise when will you build?

Or maybe you’re this curious person. Always taking in new information, well if you want to use any of that– you’ll have to sit down and organize the thing some time.

Our mind CAN shift between different modes, but most of us refuse. We’d rather keep doing jocko and because of that, we get stuck.

Now you’re binge-watching motivation videos all day, and addicted to “getting better” but you’re not actually doing shit.

Improvement isn’t a book or video. It’s goth. It’s taking that weak muscle of the brain and feeding it.

If you find yourself having any inner conflict or you’re stuck in life. Incongruence is likely the problem– who have you been neglecting?

Jocko or gotho? Either way, everyone has to be able to play.

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Dancing With Delusion: How To Alpha Fear Forward

Published November 4, 2021 by V

Each and every one of us is motivated by fear, and the majority of our lives is determined by how we interact (or don’t) with our fear.

Everyone wants The Hero’s Journey in theory, but we consciously cheat on it every single day.

We live like kids but crave adult lives and then wonder why we’re depressed. Your frustration comes from incongruence, you’re not living by what you value.

A child fears being stuck. That same child as an adult fears not building anything to ever secure freedom in the future. It’s the same fear, but better developed so that one can move forward.

That is the idea behind ALPHA fears.

With the latter, you’ll end up embracing opportunity and sticking to whatever necessary to have some successful future. The child fear will lead you to frogger job-ing and thus always starting over.

We have to bring out what’s in us, and to do that we have to destroy what doesn’t match up with it.

There’s no middle ground.

There’s no reality where you have it all.

Everything in life is a trade off. To be fulfilled, and become an individual you have to leave. You have to go on your own journey and a lot of times that means the tribe will hate you.

You’ll lose friends and family, but in the end it’s worth it, because you’ll become someone you admire and respect.

Take whatever you fear, and blow it up– alpha fear it. Worried about people not liking you? How about you living a shit life and not ever being able to help anyone because you never evolved? Fearing being stuck? How about never building anything and having nothing because you always chase random delusions.

Alpha your fears and then use them to take action.

We’re supposed to burn in the flames of uncertainty. That’s where we evolve as human beings.

Take the call.

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All of My Success Came From Talking To Myself… and still

Published October 29, 2021 by V

I’ve been ducking pursuing my actual dream for awhile now… YEARS.

Nonstop flip-flopping around the idea that it just wasn’t good enough for me.

I wanted it to be bigger, and at the same time I kept trying to convince myself that this particular dream wasn’t a good fit for my character.

Sure… it’s definitely not fear

I looked at others who had it– and I didn’t want to make a fool of myself, which to me they often did.

But Yesterday I started.

What finally pushed me over? Compound interest on self awareness. My problem was I kept comparing myself and my path to others. I’d look at them and think: I want something better, I don’t want to look like that, my title should be cooler, I’m too clever for that, etc.

This line of thinking can only ever lead to one thing: Broke. Broke and alone on your loser ass.

I was playing status games.

A very dumb way of thinking…. and penniless.

But that’s what I was on.

Looking back– I can see what kept me stuck. It was never a lack of skill or direction, but just a bad mindset. I kept throwing away momentum because I kept cheating with ideas of something else– of being someone else.

Withdrawing from my own path undermined my progress.

The combination of journaling, a daily blog, and then a private video diary series led to overcoming my inner conflict. It led me to want to explore myself and to stop playing this stupid compare and contrast game.

It’s crazy how much that was responsible for not being able to create.

The life I wanted demanded authenticity, and without knowing it, I wasn’t.

I couldn’t honor who I was because I kept judging it.

Until now.

If you’re not happy with yourself, it’s because you don’t understand yourself. We all suck, and we’re all awesome. Understanding yourself and cutting yourself slack like you would a different person is what it takes for a fulfilling life.

Whether through writing, voice recording, or private videos to self— start talking to yourself.

Seeing yourself and building the connection is what leads to having empathy and understanding. It helps you stop taking yourself and everything so seriously and it will be what gets you over your own hurdles.

Make the call, and finally start ☎️

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Remake Yourself: Saying Goodbye to my Narrator… kinda

Published October 13, 2021 by V

When I first read The Laws of Human Nature– I immediately knew this was all I wanted.

I wanted a better version of myself.

One that could find joy in every moment, optimize their brain for living fully, and most importantly– play while still being purposeful.

Who the hell wouldn’t want that?

So I got busy.

I went about change in every possible way I could think up.

I took inventory of my strengths and weaknesses, did the whole “imagine the best you” and then tried to play that role— I think they called it living-as-if, it sounded real convincing.

Did any of it work? Is it that black and white– could change really be as simple as shifting into a make believe identity?

Well…. you tell me.

Because when I let this “higher self” drive, I definitely had a better attitude. I, even if only temporarily, was definitely more open to experiences, and overall I felt more relaxed– almost as if I knew everything was going to be okay.

But the watcher was still there.

You know, the person narrating your movie in real time.

And he’s an asshole.

No matter which character I let drive the wheel– the narrator remained unchanged. On top of that, all these make-believe better selves liked the guy. Yeah, he’s an asshole, but he’s perceptive, and understands human nature, and he’s what kept you safe all these years (the real answer).

For some reason, all these idiots inside me didn’t understand compromise (maybe still don’t).

We seem to be under the impression that if we’re happy or joyful, we’ll lose who we are!? Sounds insane coming out of my mind, but it’s true.

And here lies the problem for all of us struggling to reinvent ourselves: We’re in love with suffering.

You may not agree, but ask yourself– during the process of change, which part always stops you from fully crossing?

It’s because your identity is tied to that inner storm– part of you loves the intensity, because a part of you is that.

However, life is phases.

My narrator is great for survival, but useless for building. Useless for living joyfully, creating new experiences, and fulfilling my purpose.

This is where most of us will get stuck.

Remaking ourselves isn’t about aiming at some fictional bullshit wannabe superhero and dawning the cape.

You can’t pretend to be changed.

You have to actually change– and the only way to do that is to LET GO.

LET GO of the narrator, forget the voice, try to approach things without their advice and see what happens.

You’ll always hear them, they are a part of you– but stop letting them drive. Try to do the opposite, prove to yourself you can.

This isn’t about trying to be better– this is about living.

And if you want to live fully, change the genre of your movie, then you need to unlearn their ways and familiarize yourself with the more silent type within.

Because it isn’t the narrator who brought you to this post.

It’s the third viewer– your potential.

And they hunger to be brought out.

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2yrs of High School… For Life

Published September 29, 2021 by V

During my junior year, I had a history teacher I really admired. He was strict, didn’t believe in multiple choice tests or group work and his class was a hard one.

Right when the school year began –most teachers assigned taking home a syllabus, he assigned a 7 page paper due that week.

The average score on his test was a 70% and that’s after 4 hours of study.

Students dropped his class like flies.

I wanted to– but my mom convinced me otherwise.

Sure enough, that one teacher and his one class changed everything for me. It was hard, took dedication– but throughout the school year I improved.

My only goal became to get an A in his class, but by learning how to learn for his assignments– success spread over to other areas.

That year I had a 4.0 GPA. Even math (a usual struggle) became easy. I felt good about myself, not because I enjoyed studying or doing all that work– but because I could trust myself to take on difficulty and work.

So naturally, when recruits from a high school/college program came looking for students– I signed up.

And so, I found myself in college for my senior year of high school.

A little different this year, having remnants of my newfound ability to learn but unchecked needs for popularity, I went all out.

Here, I played.

I was popular, had my groups, took massive risks… and rather than study– I created.

If there was any chapter throughout my entire childhood that was awesome and worth reliving– it was this one, no question. That year I was Rockstar, and not a single day felt like work.

The combination of these 2 years is how I intend to live the rest of my life.

There are things that demand dedication, and it’s medicinal to do so. For me, this is muay thai. As my junior year shows, just one area of total dedication will positively infect all other aspects of your life.

That creation period from senior year– that’s what I want from my career. I want to constantly play and innovate, come up with fun projects and build with my team.

These 2 years are all I ever needed to understand what creates fulfillment.

Now I finally do.

Total commitment to the present. Total submission to your path.

No fantasizing, no wishing for a different life.

BE here, now, and fully.

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The Master Key To Success Is 2nd Hand Wisdom

Published September 20, 2021 by V

I’d be willing to bet the most important thing to your success is clarity– your ability to see things as they really are.

Reality is neutral, but the human mind isn’t and we see reflections of our own thoughts and feelings in the world.

Our experiences become our reality.

And this is how the human being gets caught in their own web.

We live these matrix lives, where day in and day out it’s pretty much more of the same.

We face the same kinds of problems, conflicts, and even come up with the same kinds of solutions. We never think anything new, and if you really look– you’ll see your life is just you re-running the same program in different environments.

You might wonder why does it even matter?

Well, If you love your life it doesn’t. But if you desire for more and at that, actual achievement… it matters a lot.

There is a way to change this, but it’s hard and requires outside help.

I don’t mean your goo-roo.

You need help from future you… but not the successful one, the failure.

You need to get outside of yourself, see yourself, and then make adjustments and plans from that vantage point.

A few years back, I met someone a lot like me. At the time I didn’t see it, but they might as well have been me– aged to 40.

He had my same personality type, and with that, same life obstacles.

While he was incredibly witty and capable, he never built anything. He was always jumping from thing to thing, had all these ideas he never finished, and even though he knew how to laugh at the world– there was an underlying intensity you could feel.

I of course, saw no similarity.

But he did.

And he was smart enough to tell me you’ll want to create systems to stop you from jumping around– basically, know your weaknesses and act accordingly.

I didn’t listen.

So, I started to make his mistakes.

I did that for a few years, until finally I saw it. I could see that my mind did this.

And this is where success began. I could actually see myself aging into him, and to avoid that because I do want a fulfilling and successful life– I’m sticking. His problem is he never stays the course, he has too many ideas and acts on all of them all the time.

His problem, is potentially mine.

In your head you can’t see yourself.

Seeing him, my problem becomes real.

The reality is my mind is overactive and always imagines better paths– but these paths CAN’T cause you to leave your current one.

Looking at his life, I’ve seen how this all ends. It ends with wasted potential.

So, thanks to his second hand wisdom, I’m sticking to my lane. Everything else is just interesting, but not an option.

Learn from future you by meeting them.

The ability to see the world through a neutral lens is EVERYTHING.

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What Everybody Ought to Know About Self Improvement

Published September 18, 2021 by V

The sheer volume of online personality tests available is insane.

There’s a test for everything.

From the bullshit “spirit animal” buzzfeed quizzes to self-soothing myers briggs “science” … we’re a generation looking for improvement.

Unfortunately, that’s not what results from these tests (pun intended).

Instead, we end up trying to over-identify with something stupid and then we become these weird mascots of some obvious archetype…. and now you’re not a whole ass person.

We start the rabbit hole in search of self betterment, but get lost in “proud of who I am.”

It’s cheap.

The problem with self improvement is this– definition. See, most of these tests shouldn’t exist. We forget what it is we’re trying to improve and when something like a good ol’ internet assessment tells us, “actually you’re not lazy–you’re an intellectual,” you end up defending being a loser.

In this sense, self improvement isn’t real.

After braces, we have a better smile– but those are still our teeth. Genetically, you have f**ked up teeth, but the braces kept them in line.

Don’t look for self-improvement, look to build systems (having things in place that maximize your character and make you your best version).

That’s what we all get wrong.

We don’t need better personalities or to change who we are.

We need better attitudes and systems to guide our behavior. That’s the only reason it’s important to know yourself– but this knowledge can’t be “tested online.”

This is you writing or being with yourself, and gradually getting to know yourself. What environments do you thrive in? Where do you suck?

Typing your date wouldn’t help you know them on any meaningful level.

It’s the same with yourself.

Don’t go cheap, go deep.

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Toddler Fury: Where Do You Have It In You?

Published September 10, 2021 by V

When I was at my lowest-self-esteem, I reached out to legitimate mbti practitioners. Long story short, if you understand how your brain is wired, you can begin to see your blind spots and finally get better of them.

So, they typed me.

Of course, I didn’t agree with it at the time. I thought I was more magical, special, and some deviant… a unique exception to the rule. Why? Because I didn’t identify with my struggle– most of us don’t.

Despite the fact that I was doing exactly what she said I’d do.

I just thought the reason mattered– sure, maybe other EXXPs jump around because of their uncontrollable curiosity but not me. No, I’m looking for my unique purpose in life… and that’s different #Puke.

Anyways, point is they were right. And after having more of the same, I grew sick and tired and then finally wiser.

That led me to starting something and sticking which pulled me out, but that’s not the point of this story.

The point here is that was just step 1.

You can now move onto problem number 2.

Toddler fury over inanimate objects perfect timing.

Yesterday, my car alarm starts going off. I spring to action immediately to answer the cry for help, and make sure no particular intruder set off the bat signal. I’m standing there shooting my car with the clicker, but no response……

… I try what every capable American would. I keep pushing the button, harder, now I’m trying different combinations– Lock, unlock, alarm.

Still nothing.

The alarm goes silent from it’s annoying cry, but I can’t get into my car.

The clicker died, despite the battery being changed a year ago.

So my car, which is supposedly not alive, has decided to switch sides and lock me out. Rage.

Instant rage.

I could tell you what happens afterwards and how I drove to two different shops to get the clicker replaced, one had the tool for the job but no battery, the other had batteries and no tool — but I’ll spare you the details.

The day ended it with me discovering, it’s not the battery at all.

And on a more personal level, I still have a lot of work to do.

No human being can TOP the anger that comes from these seemingly unalive objects getting me.

How am I working on this?

By recognizing this will forever be a thing, and on these days I will stay true to the character I want to have.

Instead of driving around like a lunatic, I’ll go straight home. Stay enjoying the night and deal with it next day.

Put yourself first next time.

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