Tag: #findingyourwhy

Take it serious and you lose.

Nothing lasts, not even misery. And since none of this will matter in the end, we might as well loosen up. You don’t have big decisions in retrospect, why suffer?

The only attitude to keep is one of play. Fool around. Guess. Do something just to see what happens, explore.

Nothing is a big deal.

The only thing you accomplish by mentally building up your problems is anxiety, maybe an early onset panic attack… everyone is cool being a side character in their own movie.

That’s weird to me.

Nothing is real until it happens, so why think about fictitious possibilities? Most of us are free to do whatever we want, but we stay doing nothing. Probably because most of us are afraid of the unknown, but the answer to that– is get over it.

Life really isn’t complicated.

When you’re in your head, you suffer. When you’re out in the world, you grow.

Theres your solution.

I was doing it wrong too. But my focus isn’t scale, dreams, and all the Freudian desires advertising has me convinced I need to be fulfilled.

I just want a life, a full life, with a helluva story and the only way to reach that is to fool around. People who take things too seriously are a poison. I was one of them.

They’ll switch the genre of your movie just by being near you. Your comedy/action thriller is converted into a lame soap opera drama— one that no one, not even you, wants to watch.

Since we’ve established nothing matters, and that’s a good thing– where will you go? What will you do?

It’s 2022.

How will you make this your best?

I’m going for it. What would you do if you couldn’t fail?

If Heaven is so great, how the hell did all these miserable people make it passed the gate?

I think each of us has some dirt inside, a tiny part within that produces a little blood-flow to the crotch area, for every time you’re an asshole.

Problem is when you get a little more than just blood flow, instead this becomes your method of existing.

I’m actually pro-humanity, so before I go off on people, understand– I’m coming from the goodness of my heart.

When did we set our default to Scrooge Mcduck?

What no one talks about is the fun behind meanness. When you’re an “asshole” you’re naturally rebellious, put yourself first, and become a leader… in a way– not one who can lead others, but you stop following and looking for acceptance, to some extent.

Meanness is addicting.

The problem is, it makes you miserable, robs you of joy and new experiences, oh, and no one wants to be around you so you die alone, grumpy, and stupid— while being full of regret.

No doubt, you’ll need a dash of darkside to combat it in others, but don’t live with that step forward.

My approach has been to force myself passed my own barriers.

I think it’s dumb that we hold back. It’s stupid what we get hung up on, and the shit we talk about is unimportant– yet we’re making life decisions based on these things.

In a world of idiots, I’m choosing to be the one that enjoys themselves.

We’re not supposed to know… there, I just saved you years of bullshitting.

You know one of the biggest blocks for me? I wanted to know exactly where everything was going. It wasn’t enough to kinda like something, or be semi-interested.

If this thing didn’t lead EXACTLY to the thing I thought I wanted, well, it wasn’t worth even entertaining in the present.

And what’d that shite mentality lead to– life passing right by.

Years of being stuck in the same place, all because you wouldn’t act outside of your self imposed instruction manual.

But, then you did.

And now we’re here. Where is here?

Openness– my new GPS.

Being loose led me to exploring new interests and now I’ve found a definite one that I enjoy working on, so that’s 2022. I’m going to develop my skill and build a body of work, showcasing what I can do.

I’m ready to play– to do things for the sake of doing them.

I’m going to take on everything I’ve ever been interested and I’m going to stay loose. Life is easier open, it’s also abundant. That mentality led to way more success, so that’s whats happening this year and the rest.

The only thing I would have changed going back in time? I would have this mentality every year, every day, every second.

So, for 2022– build yourself, build your name, and most of all–play.

Hey MF.

If life is like a game, why can’t you win?

See, In our modern world, we’re all playing a game– each and every one of us.

The game has less to do with what you stand for, and more to do with where you stand. To succeed, you need votes in our democratic system. You need the support of a tribe– one that you might call your own.

But they’re not your tribe.

As unfortunate as you might think it is, everyone is playing games. Most people don’t believe what they protest, don’t care about others problems, and unless they stand to benefit– probably don’t give a shit about having a relationship with you.

Hopefully, your small circle of family and friends is excluded.

But the rest of the world? Let’s just say winter is always coming.

You take this personally, but you shouldn’t. If you understand this, it makes it so easy for you to advance yourself and your goals.

Want to partner up with someone? Consider what drives them, what does this person want, what are they desperate for? Some of you will read this and think it machiavellian, which is cute. You’re a hopeless romantic.

This is relationship management, not manipulation.

It’s scary how much easier life gets, when you stop taking everyone and everything so seriously.

It aint serious.

You somehow think democrats are after your freedom, or republicans are after your… birth control? I actually don’t know what they want.

Point is, no one cares. No side cares.

Try to stop being a sheep for a second and remember, those parties are just bullshit organizations that make a living parasiting off society. They need you angry to make money, but even “your own side” doesn’t give a shit about you.

So, what the hell is the point of all this?

Here it is: To succeed in life, we all must play our own games. The game you choose to play, depends on your goals and what kind of life you’d like. BUT EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US HAS TO PLAY. Life is a trade off, so what is it you want? Decide. Free yourself up, then go play.

You have no say in what excites you, it either does or it doesn’t. If we take this logic, how the hell would you then go and do things that already feel dead and passionless?

You’re an observer.

Your only job is to stop judging yourself and let go of the outcome– no one likes a try hard, especially the universe.

With that in mind, heres what it looks like: When you interact with what is meant for you– your entire biological system lights up– you’re excited, engaged, and straight up can’t sleep.

The funny thing is, we completely miss it.

We disqualify what we love, in hopes we find something more complicated… like a long distance relationship.

My senior year of HS is when I first fell in love with writing scripts and directing them. I left that and didn’t go back to it til now….. YEARS LATER.

I guess I had to be sure, now I am.

You’re born this way. Quirks and all.

You are who you are, and your only job is to follow that unique genetic makeup and see what it is that lights you up.

Phuck your ideas, follow the biology.

What gives you energy?

It’s not intellectual, it just is what it is. Don’t judge it or think about, explore it.

I love writing so much, I could never do it again.

Do you see your competition? Ever look and see other things you could do?

If you’re anything like me, even a remotely similar personality, then stilling your wavering mind will be your greatest obstacle.

Currently, I’m in a great position… on paper.

I’m financially rev’d up, career growing, and in an environment where I have leverage and the freedom to innovate.

And with all those things considered, I’m painfully bored.

I’m trying to incorporate other things into my life to not phuck up the course I’m on, because ultimately my goals are no longer tied to pleasure– rather autonomy. So I understand, boredom is part of the game.

But shit… it’s painful.

Everyday another battle. Refocusing the mind. Re-reminding yourself why you’re doing what you’re doing.

Re-remembering the past, what pursuing delusion does… outsiders sound philosophical, but they’re almost always broke. That’s fine if you don’t care about money, but I always did– so not an option for me.

Why did I get ahead within a year? Because I left dreamland and pursued practical. I worked on something, each day, by myself– which resulted in a new career.

Given my personality and the weaknesses that come with it, the universe only rewards practical.

Meaning I can’t “All or Nothing” anything.

You have to know your triggers. You have to know where your mind cheats you.

My mind doesn’t like to build, it likes to roam. My life and fulfillment however, depend on me building.

So, when my bullshit mind plays that movie of exotic travel and excitement, all I have to do is remember the bank accounts and what really happens when I listen to that.

You will get ahead to the extent you can see reality.

My spiritual muscle needing development is building.

Yours might be self-care.

Maybe it’s being alone, or development.

I don’t know, we’re all different.

But you DO KNOW what it is, when you’re real with yourself.

Attack that first, and life bends to your will.

Ever play those free roaming video games? They have those amazing graphics and to some extent, imitate reality?

I used to love the free roaming part.

Especially if the level I had to pass was hard and annoying– you could just steal cars and race cops (Grand Theft Auto).

In the video game of life theres a similar setting equivalent to free roam, float. Floating. Not moving. Not progressing. Avoiding the mission.

A lot of us choose to play the game like this… never fully playing.

The real challenge here is when you get so off course, how the hell do you find the main mission? How do you get back on track?

Unlike video games, it’s not going to be as simple as following an icon on a map.

The way life reveals that guiding icon is through building. The Universe rewards making things… either happen, or from nothing.

If you can move and take on a challenging new role– do it. If you’re unfulfilled and need a side project, build something. It doesn’t have to be a total obsession or passion, just work on something, even casually.

Movement leads to the course.

But whatever you do, don’t convince yourself that your game is just a free roam– theres no such thing.

If you could print a receipt of everything on your mind and you stored it in a shoebox– you’d notice other than the date, the items stay the same.

This is why we never break free.

Your mind plays tricks on you– it has worse cravings than a college stoner, irrational fears worse than a tantrumed toddler, and it resets by the next morning without your permission like a windows update.

So the game you’re really playing is overcoming your settings (mattering mind).

I’ll give you mine as an example. The hardest part is seeing it in yourself, once you do that, then you can work on overcoming it.

I always crave change.

This looks like me obsessing with progress, but there aren’t any metrics for this default setting of mine. So what this really looks like is my mind playing some bullshit fantasy of me moving states, getting a new job, new circle of friends and starting over. The trigger is boredom.

I’ve done this.

I’ve acted on it in the past so I know how this plays out.

Your mind says it leads to success, but what really happens is you throw away all your opportunity and progress to then start from zero.

Your internal movie is counterproductive to your goals.

DON’T TRUST MIND.

My goal is freedom and independence, no longer needing a job, and being fulfilled with the work that I do— all of this comes from building.

To get ahead of my default wiring, I withdraw my fear coins and deposit them in this new account: By not submitting and building one thing, you will never have anything that gives you autonomy or freedom.

It’s this simple.

You’ll still use fear, we’re all motivated by it. Only now, you’ll reframe what your mind is saying and leverage it to achieve your goals– your real goals, the ones that are nonnegotiable and never change.

Before you decide anything, you need to see that receipt– the one that shows you where your mind messes with your head.

Either journal or voice record yourself for 30 days.

Just dump whats on your mind, and you will see it.

Stop having deja vu’s… don’t repeat the same day.

Ass hurt?

Regardless of what side of the fence your feet hang, sitting there is always pointy… don’t get stuck hanging by your pants.

Get off the fence (asshole’s advice) but its the best advice.

Nothing happens sitting on the fence, and thing is– it most likely isn’t as a big a deal as you’re making it.

A lot of us want change– “more life, more errythang‘ (Drizzy Drake). So how does it happen that years pass, and we’re where we are, doing the same old same old?

We think of change as these big all or nothing moments, like moving to a different state, taking on an entirely different career, etc. And maybe that is what you need, but in my experience that type of change always led to me starting back at ZERO.

Lasting Change is incremental.

Use the momentum you have, and make slight improvements, ones that make your life slightly more enjoyable by the day.

So comes my 2022 blueprint.

What small changes would make my current building more enjoyable and engaging?

Figure out what tiny, small, and easy changes you can make. They have to be small otherwise you’ll end up not doing anything or doing it wrong.

Sometimes change is just an edit, not a yes or no life altering decision.

Hello students of tarot cards and you whoreascope witches.

You’ve likely had this experience.

Something and something is about to happen, a weird sensation in your gut shocks the “pay attention” signal throughout your entire being– which you nervously do, and then as if by magik you end up avoiding the thing, thus dodging catastrophe.

A few of these moments– and you start to trust that gut instinct entirely.

Now, like a second brain, you’re explaining the stupid shit that you do with “my gut, it feels right.”

Uh huh.

I get it… this was once me. A few eerily real feeling dreams, and I’m ready to wake up and make plans.

But your gut is still a gut… not a crystal ball.

I’m not here to explain away the odd dreams that happen 5 days in a row, or the angel numbers you wake up to. Some things aren’t meant to be explained or studied.

I’m taking on the side of trying to manufacture magical moments into your life… like seeing 4:44 on the clock (just the one time) and then saying it’s the universe demanding change… based on that single moment…

I don’t know, seems reckless even for me.

You know what else figuratively lives in your gut? Desire. Grandiosity. The hunger for achievement.

That’s no small thing, so how can you be sure you’re not mixing “I really wanna” with “I’ve got a feeling” ?

Well, you’ll know if you phucked up the cake when you taste it.

You have to try it, and try to do it safely without committing. Rather than moving states, transferring dreams and goals in one swoop, try it on… on a very small scale.

If you like a type of writing, do it on your own– develop, where you are. Whatever your thing is, try the cake first.

It’s so easy to want something to be true, but fulfillment comes from what is not from what you’d like.

Test every instinct.

Eat before you read that fortune cookie… it could save you.

Sup MF.

If you can turn down that BTS record, you’ll notice a movie playing in the background– this ones based on what could be a true story.

We’ve got things we kind-a like, kind-a want, kind-a think about, but no real commitment.

Kind-a won’t cut it. Your lame kind-a goals are an intellectual kind– which means you had to convince yourself to do it. Those aren’t real goals, they’re backed by the rational mind… what it takes is desire.

For most things, in fact almost everything, the mind is a broken record.

It plays the same hurt, dreams, aspirations, excuses, etc. It’s always repeating and we hear a new sound each time because we experience different every go around.

There’s not much to be gained from a broken record– other than sameness, which you don’t want… you really don’t want.

But there is a sameness that you ought to pay attention to.

A movie the mind pulls you into– but you try not to watch for too long. It’s a recurring dream, while awake. That thing you always entertain in the back of your mind, but some how fear.

It’s completely normal to fear it– it’s a real dream, it’s supposed to scare you. The reason it does is because you can’t keep your current life and have it.

And that type of uncertainty makes you shaky.

But the alternative is a passionless lifeless existence.

Which… that sound like an alternative to you?

You come alive in those moments of film– seeing it in others. When you interact or see people who resemble something to your movie, you’ll feel it.

It’s your job to give birth to that movie.

That’s why you’re here.

There’s nothing else.

The movie that keeps playing— make it. Record it. Do it.

Stop convincing yourself. Pay attention to what your mind keeps playing, at first, you’ll only see a glance. But when you get good at it, you’ll start to see enough to only see it.

Hey MF.

How’s it going?

Are you moving towards acceptance or are you still struggling to change the things about yourself you can’t stand?

The more your life reflects what you’re like– the greater your chances of success.

In other words, you don’t have to change at all… in fact, you shouldn’t. Instead, you need to maximize your chances of success by finding environments that closely match your nature.

Our instincts always point to something being wrong with us, then we sit there trying to edit ourselves– but you didn’t design your biology.

Lady Luck is attracted to authenticity.

Our only job is to maximize each day, and to really do that, all you have to do is be the most you.

Like martial arts? Find various routines, try a bunch of new styles and gyms.

Like building? See what projects excite you right now that you could potentially attach yourself to.

If you like something, do it.

She always comes around when she sees someone fully themselves. It’s her thing, and she can’t help herself.

If you want any kind of good life, you need to start small, and start adding things you enjoy into your day-to-day.

Also, no one is attracted to someone who takes themselves too seriously. Lighten up, loosen up, and play.

–Another MF