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Dart boarding my wavering brain… why can’t you stick?

I love writing so much, I could never do it again.

Do you see your competition? Ever look and see other things you could do?

If you’re anything like me, even a remotely similar personality, then stilling your wavering mind will be your greatest obstacle.

Currently, I’m in a great position… on paper.

I’m financially rev’d up, career growing, and in an environment where I have leverage and the freedom to innovate.

And with all those things considered, I’m painfully bored.

I’m trying to incorporate other things into my life to not phuck up the course I’m on, because ultimately my goals are no longer tied to pleasure– rather autonomy. So I understand, boredom is part of the game.

But shit… it’s painful.

Everyday another battle. Refocusing the mind. Re-reminding yourself why you’re doing what you’re doing.

Re-remembering the past, what pursuing delusion does… outsiders sound philosophical, but they’re almost always broke. That’s fine if you don’t care about money, but I always did– so not an option for me.

Why did I get ahead within a year? Because I left dreamland and pursued practical. I worked on something, each day, by myself– which resulted in a new career.

Given my personality and the weaknesses that come with it, the universe only rewards practical.

Meaning I can’t “All or Nothing” anything.

You have to know your triggers. You have to know where your mind cheats you.

My mind doesn’t like to build, it likes to roam. My life and fulfillment however, depend on me building.

So, when my bullshit mind plays that movie of exotic travel and excitement, all I have to do is remember the bank accounts and what really happens when I listen to that.

You will get ahead to the extent you can see reality.

My spiritual muscle needing development is building.

Yours might be self-care.

Maybe it’s being alone, or development.

I don’t know, we’re all different.

But you DO KNOW what it is, when you’re real with yourself.

Attack that first, and life bends to your will.

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