Month: April 2021

It’s not even worth chasing.

Most of us eventually get to a place where we realize what we craved so desperately, we don’t want anymore.

I used to want fame & fortune, just for the sake of it.

I wanted recognition for the sake of fixing me, spiritually.

In the end, what you’re looking for is something to fill the void.

Not getting what I wanted was the best thing to ever happen to me.

It forced me to start over, to get to know myself, and to redesign my life and figure out what essentials would make for an overall enjoyable experience.

The good life came as a result of not getting “the good life.”

We’re all drilled with it nonstop: Find your passion, don’t be lazy, do this, try that, follow me, not them.

Its all bullshit.

Everyones fighting for advertising space- and they want your mind.

You have to float. Thats the answer. You have to be lost for a little, explore yourself, be with yourself and learn about what it is you want.

There isn’t another way.

#StayFoolish

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What’s Up Fool.

It’s time for a new beginning, and I don’t mean one where everyone has something covering their face. I’m starting a new chapter of my life and I want to make sure I get maximum enjoyment out of it.

Don’t Wait.

Don’t put off living for some made-up conditions you have, you’ll just end up not doing anything and when years go by, you’ll wonder what the hell happened and why you’re so pissed off.

Movement is everything.

You need to take on more than you can handle right NOW, which is counterintuitive to our self-sooth biological anti-virus software. We see the world is f**ked up, so we get used to withdrawing to recharge.

By itself, not bad. As a habit, f**ked.

Are we screwed?

Yes.

But that’s a good thing.

I say it so often that it’s almost annoying hearing myself. Luckily, I like the sound of my own voice so I don’t mind repeating it: You’re gonna die.

Every day, we’re dying.

We’re like some food that was supposed to be refrigerated, but we left it out overnight….. it’s just a matter of time.

How ya’ livin?

I don’t want to go out miserable. I don’t want to have been the person who took it all seriously.

Nothing is guaranteed, except the fact that it will end.

With that, I’ll write in a better chapter. Maybe we don’t control the entire narrative of our lives, but you decide what the character does and who they are.

The book was never yours, so forget it. Focus on creating a better character.

Show Up, no matter what happens. #StayFoolish

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There are things we can’t control.

A lot of what and who we are, just sort of happened.

But if you want a dramatically better life, you can’t settle for “just being you.” I’m a firm believer in nature beating nurture. I think we’ve all got unique characters, but what shapes our experience is largely in the dark.

We operate unknowingly.

Totally unconscious, just being in some mood- then wondering why. Because we let our environments and circumstances decide for us. We let externals impact internal, when it needs to be the other way around.

I have a love/ hate relationship with myself. I’m in love with my potential, but despise my addiction to self #BoostingMyEGO.

Ego feels good. When you have a big ego, its intoxicating. You’re bold, fearless, take what you want, and firmly believe in conquering any obstacle thrown your way. Despite life proving time and again, I’m definitely not some God- I’m still a believer.

Why do we even crave being more?

Because we want better lives.

I don’t value taking life too seriously, and that’s who I was in my youth. Everything was a big deal, I was always on the look out for danger, and even when I was having fun- I never let myself be totally in the moment.

Then I got to a point and realized what a shit life that is.

And it is.

I need to become more because I NEED to be the best version of myself. I need to have a fulfilling life, filled with growth, constant new experiences, and personal evolution.

People with no character arcs scare the shit out of me.

I need change because I’m cursed, like some of you. I can see my potential and the gap towards reaching it.

So, no matter how much I’d love to chill and think, “Damn, I’ve made it.” I’m just not allowed to, because above all- I crave that highest version of me.

Life from this lens is pretty f**king awesome.

If you’re looking where to start, check out The Laws of Human Nature, by Robert Greene.

That book has become my only reading material for the last few years, and has by far helped me become more myself, and my potential than anything else.

#StayFoolish

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My snake in the garden is possibility.

I’m always tempted by some idea of grandeur.

I know, it doesn’t sound like a much of a struggle and it wouldn’t be, if I didn’t actually pursue it.

No matter how well I do, something in me craves the fantastical. It’s not even ambition at this point, just pure craving for delusion.

Complete imagination.

It’s the grass is always greener syndrome.

What I have noticed is cravings SUCK. They’re empty calories- that when consumed, leave you wanting even more. When I indulge in these highs, these fantastical delusions where I imagine I’ll be king of the world- I’m left exhausted.

I victory lap my living room while playing my internal “success tape” and then eventually come back to reality.

The cycle repeats every time I have a win.

Like a lot of you, I’m a dreamer. I believe in manifesting your goals, bringing to life your visions, going for it.

But the means matter: Ruthless practicality is the only solution.

Although it doesn’t look like it, I’m actually making progress. I get less riled up than normal, but the real skill here is how quick can you return to reality?

For me, the time is reduced each day.

Thing is, I’ve come to realize that freedom is built, not found.

And to build, you have to stay present. Everything good in my life came from reality.

So I choose to stay here. Sure, I have days where I go on trips, indulge fantasy, and escape for a little while- but I always return.

That’s what matters.

#StayFoolish

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By far the best technique to put things into perspective is thinking of death.

Knowing you’re going to die melts away every anxiety, worry, self conscious thoughts, and bad attitudes.

We get so stuck in our habitual responses, we forget to live our movie.

They say, “don’t think like that.”

STUPID.

Of course think like that. How else will you gain gratitude? How else will you play and stay optimistic in the face of adversity?

Only by knowing every single moment here is rented.

It’s a weird trick of the human brain- we’re wired to forget. To take life for granted, get pissed off at dumb unimportant things, and worry about our future as if there is something in it more crucial than living in the NOW.

I’m guilty of it too.

All I ever really think about is my career, ambitions, what I want to build, how I want to succeed.

But in brief moments of clarity, I remind myself- I’m lucky to be here right now. Regardless of what happens, at least I got a movie. Some never get that.

At any moment, we can rewrite the genre of our lives. That’s the point of life.

What makes a great story is largely a good character arc, so evolve. You’re not obligated to stay how you’ve always been, you’re not wired to either.

You’ve been playing wrong.

Let go, and learn to smile at it all.

#StayFoolish

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What’s hatnin’ fool?

There’s a lot of positive changes in my life and that has led me to being a positive downer this morning (like that snake friend who reminds you of a loss when you win).

It’s easy to run with it, especially for me.

I’m winning right now, and it’s a lot of wins at once. It’s TOO easy to take this and make it apart of me- define myself by it, after all, this is who I’ve always wanted to be.

As much as I love it, and believe me, I’m completely absorbed in the moment- BUT on some stoicism shit, I remind myself its all temporary.

Because nothing lasts.

Sure, I’m winning now, and it’s fun but eventually losing will follow, and I have to be ready for that too. If I define myself as the winner- as soon as I lose, I’ll come crashing down. #MeltedWings

So how do I enjoy this moment, develop my skills, and keep myself level throughout life’s obstacles?

I attach my identity/values to something that can’t be taken.

That’s what you have to do.

Make it personal. Not your career, position, wealth, none of that. That’s all fun, but dangerous to be defined by because it’s not in your control. NEVER define yourself by externals.

I am my character.

The person who adapts quick, learns and evolves, constantly faces adversity, and rises. I’m the person who values keeping composure no matter what, letting go, and always acting bold despite having doubt.

I choose to stay playful and flirt with the world, because misery is a failed approach to having a good life.

We only control our responses and approach.

You’re an attitude and a mindset. Everything else is either a byproduct of that, or circumstantial. Either way, not for you to decide.

Figure out what makes you unique- your quirks, skills, interests, and stay developing yourself.

When you realize what you are can never be taken, you’ll always thrive. Regardless of your station in life.

#StayFoolish

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Sup’ Fool.

Who are you? #HitChaWithThatDeepDeep

Oh, okay, so we’re getting spiritual up in here- no.

I don’t know about you, but even without wanting to, my mind whips out the mental resume of my accomplishments, things I’ve done, and ways I’ve acted, to answer this question.

While it feels amazing to have a career that not only suits me but one I’m passionate about- I stay careful. See, I already went through the classic millennial identity crisis. I know what awaits us when we over-identify with the wrong things.

When I defined myself solely as the person who wins, every loss became unbearably painful.

You can’t be what you do, because you can’t do forever.

You can’t be things you’ve done, because you might not anymore.

You are who you are, and that can’t be taken from you. #BARSaf

Identify with skills, mindset, attitude, all internal and all developed. That’s the key. Ironically, when I focused on developing these- I inevitably got a career that suited how I saw myself.

I’m not my career. Neither are you. It’s easy to end up seeing ourselves as the roles we play, but thats just a role. No matter how much we enjoy them- all is temporary.

We can all lose these things.

And when we do, who are you then?

I used to naively think that when I found my passion/ calling I wouldn’t have to intentionally develop myself. I’d become everything I was meant to, automatically.

Stupid.

You can never stop.

The only thing in your control is your mind. So the thing I’ve decided to take pride in is my mind, attitude, and approach to the world.

That’s all I control.

Everything else, its just part of my movie, and I embrace each moment.

#StayFoolish

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If there’s one habit we should all kick, it’s resisting.

Nothing good ever came from dreading your way through something. A lot of us don’t want to be in the position we’re in. This was me, just a few months ago.

But the more you see what’s bad, the less likely you are to ever get out.

If all you can do is think why, why, why- you’ll just drain yourself running simulations, and nothing will ever change.

Cut it out.

There’s one reason I got out.

I finally embraced what was in front of me, and not so surprisingly, it actually led to an entirely new path- one I really enjoy.

We’re used to complaining.

Being miserable.

And we’re so narcissistic, we some how think we deserve better because we’re tired and worked hard. Don’t be an idiot. There is no such thing as deserve, your life changes when you do.

You have to take action.

You have to DO something.

So instead of rotting around and wishing, take on something super small.

It really doesn’t matter what you do, movement is movement- you’ll end up somewhere different regardless.

When we’re low, thats what we really want. We want change, a new beginning.

No one is coming to save you. If you wait, you’ll wait forever, til your rent is due and your life is over.

You don’t need answers, having them wouldn’t change anything. You need to MOVE.

Go, do something.

#StayFoolish

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They say we’re screwed.

We don’t know the value of hard work and dedication.

We’re supposed to keep our heads down and not be sluts for attention.

Woker than the hippies before us, we know the system is rigged. We know the universe doesn’t give a shit about our problems. At least they had Jesus, we have nihilism… and a looming identity crisis.

But we carry on.

They say find a job, but we look for passion.

They say you’ll be broke, we say we’ve grown spiritually.

And now they say you can’t buy a home, pay off debt, ever be free, and you’ll be stuck serving “the gov’t.”

Okay, well… now you’ve caught our attention.

It’s become obvious, traditional paths won’t help you build any type of security in the modern world. I mean, a pandemic actually shut the globe down. #equality

So we do what any sane person would do, look for answers. But what they don’t get is there is SO MUCH CRAP out there. Our “entrepreneurs” are mostly flashy douche-bag scammers, who WE WANT to believe, because at least they don’t have a 9-5.

We have no-role models, no real education system, and no one addressing the actual problem.

We’re floaters, but measuring that as success, because we feel like sinking.

I say F**k all that, not in the nihilistic way either. We have to do it ourselves. We’ve got to climb out, how? By figuring out whats real, whats a path we can chip away at?

Only then can we climb out.

#StayFoolish

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Sup Fool.

Ever find yourself pissed off for no reason?

You just wake up angry, and you know its out of place but it lingers the entire day. #Lingerer

Well, for this, I’ve started studying stoicism. I know, at this point it’s trendy. A LOT of people claim to be philosopher kings, but I’m just trying to keep level.

From my 3 days of extensive research (back of the book summary) – it looks like the key concept surrounds your circle of control. You have to know whats in your control and everything outside of it.

It sounds simple, but it’s easier said than done.

The only thing on your to-do list: Your MIND.

That’s the only thing you’re responsible for- disciplining how you approach the world, see things, and what you choose to focus on.

Everything else, let that shit go.

All of our anxiety comes from us over-thinking the future, which we do because we think we have more control than we do.

As the antidote to anger, anxiety, and an overall seriousness towards life, stoicism gives you a flexibility and playfulness that you need to endure hardships and still have a good time.

So, I’m letting go….. of shit that doesn’t matter.

#StayFoolish

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Nothing is a big deal.

Everywhere I look, it’s “self-doubt” this, and “passion” that, and “fake it til you make it”.

It’s unbelievable.

I did those things. I was low, like a lot of us get when we’re lost, and I went through it. Know what I learned?

It’s all bullshit.

There’s no formula. There’s no right or wrong way to get it. It’s just a bunch of assholes, some rich, some pretenders, trying to “teach” you what worked for them.

You watch their show because you can’t bear your own.

What they leave out? It won’t work for you. You’re a different person.

The universe doesn’t care about your problems. Society doesn’t care about you. Quit looking for permission.

You’ll never succeed with that mindset and the more you make your problems a big deal, the more unlikely it is you’ll solve them.

I got ahead- being me. It’s not very ethical, it’s not “mentor-approved”, and maybe some would call it unfair, but it doesn’t matter.

I got what I wanted, because I went and took it.

You can sit there feeling ashamed, unworthy, insecure, pitiful, but why? That’ll never help you. I say, be cocky, overconfident, playful, and see how much changes with a different attitude.

Try it. Your way got you here, in loserville.

You’re a f**king human being- change and evolve.

Try something different.

#StayFoolish

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How most people don’t live as the main character is beyond me. I did it too, but that’s just no way to live.

This is your movie.

You’re the writer, director, producer.

What are you waiting for?

You’re free to do whatever you want. It sounds like its bullshit motivation, but it’s true. Why’d it take so long for me to realize something so obvious? The life I wanted was always within reach, but I guess I wasn’t sober enough to see it until now.

I found my passion.

I found what I’m built to do, but regardless, I choose to extend that approach to every facet of my life- and thats what changed.

I used to think all I’d do is what I was made to (my calling).

Thats ignorant.

I want my life to be ecstasy, every single part of it.

I want every moment to be pure adrenaline, and it will be, because I’ll inject that into my script. I like living in the fire, I like insurmountable challenges and the uncertainty is what makes it all interesting.

I’m not writing this to pull an “internet-guru” tale about how amazing and unique I am.

You should know, nothing stops you from doing anything.

You’ve tried your way, now, try something new.

#StayFoolish

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You’re like a shitty online dating site-

Sure, you’re attracted to what you see, but what you matched with won’t help you grow.

My grandma always had this saying, in english it would translate to, “Everyone would buy their own intelligence.”

A lot of us have poor relationships with ourselves, we’ve actually somehow made it to adulthood and never learned to take care solo-dolo.

Yeah, you know how to force-feed yourself with garbage, and distract yourself when you’re lonely, but actual self-care? Nahhh.

It’s corny.

I noticed when I’m around other people, I’m a full-of-myself individual, who doesn’t even blink in the face of obstacles. But when I’m alone, my inner monologue has a much different tone and I go from cocky CEO to depressive withdrawn artist.

I have crazy swings, from insane highs to just-above-breathing lows.

I’m delusional, because I think I can win at anything with less effort, less time, and less skill than anyone in any field. I take offense to things that don’t matter, compete and compare myself to others, and I’m a barely recovering control freak.

That said, I’d buy my own intelligence. Every time.

Even though it’s exhausting being me and I’m always tired of the upkeep.

It’s mentally draining, lonely, and recurring- but I love the f**ker too much.

The difference between me and the rest of you narcissists, I actually want to be better. I’m willing to change, and I’ll never stop pushing how much is possible despite the data revealing nurture to be statistically less than nature (for myself).

I read my old journals and CRINGE.

We’re not even talking years old. Like, last year…. even depressed, you believe in your legend.

You’d find me saying things like, “You’ve always been a master….” “Goddammit you’re too talented for this…” “Hey, I love you, but I hate you”

This is how I talk to myself.

It’s gross.

Why?

Because you think your special, and for a long time you wanted to be. Truth is, being special is an exhausting show, and I’m a retired actor #wontDOit.

I’m learning to change how I talk to myself.

None of that all-or-nothing shit, where you can’t take a joke, if someone says something sarcastic you take offense and cut them off, all because you’re some “Royal chosen one.”

You’re not special.

Being special means alone. It means no fulfilling relationships, friendships, maybe not even a career.

So choose your words careful, they shape your beliefs, which guide your actions.

It’s all so cheesy but true.

I’m now practicing practicality.

Anyways…… Ima go be with myself, because I need expert advice and this f**ker knows how to deliver wisdom.

#StayFoolish

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“What would you like to go back and tell a teacher from your past?”

F**k you, loser.

Harsh?

Well, they were wrong… at least my teachers were.

Mine were idealistic idiots.

Life isn’t a zero-sum game. Your grades won’t matter at all, at least for the majority of us, and the only thing you need to figure out is what makes your life fulfilling- and do more of that.

PLAY.

Why doesn’t anyone talk about it?

Why are the unhappy and miserable people poisoning our minds? It’s always Mr.Depression who’s handing out advice?

I’m winning, because I REFUSED to follow their advice.

So, my wisdom for the youth?

DO IT YOUR WAY.

There is no right or wrong way, just do whatever works.

#StayFoolish

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I used to death-grip life, but felt the pangs of early-onset arthritis.

I wanted what I wanted, and nothing else mattered to me.

I wasn’t open to anything outside of my own ideas of what life was supposed to be, and those who know me, know since youth I was quite the mini dictator.

What I failed to understand back then was how miserable my own attitude made me. Holding onto ideas too tightly makes you stiff, mentally fatigued and insecure. Worse of all- it makes you miserable.

Living “the good life” is a choice.

One that’s made when you let go. The irony of it all, I finally found my passion- my long lost love -who, at one point, I believed I existed for.

All I ever wanted was HER- my calling/purpose. I think we all do, and while don’t get me wrong, it’s FIRE AF having, it’s not everything.

How much you get out of something is dependent on you.

If I burn, if everything goes down around me, if I lose it all- it’ll hurt, but f**k it, life goes on.

That’s my attitude.

I realized something important recently, nearly everything we “have” we can lose in an instant.

It’s all up for grabs, especially your life… it’s rented.

I know its cliche, but we forget it too often.

Don’t ever define yourself by what you have, because you don’t really have shit. You just float through different stages, until you reach the end.

For me, I’ll just take it all in day by day and play.

If the universe wants to f**k with me, I’ll laugh at it. The genre of your life is your choice, mine is a comedy/action movie.

#StayFoolish

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Sup’ Fool,

What’s hatnin’?

When it comes to millennials and generations thereafter, we’re a spiritually lost people. We don’t know what to follow or believe, so we turn to the stars, and by stars I mean drugs, til we space the f**k out.

We’ve all got this internal hole… forever empty, and we’re trying to fill it with something meaningful.

So in come the predators, or in modern terms- gurus.

“You need to be a millionaire, Bum”

“Check out my get-rich-you-bitch, pamphlet”

“Why I’m better than you and how to catch my second-hand greatness”

We’ve become obsessed with “self-improvement” and we’ll literally believe anything at this point, as long as someone validates our internal suffering.

Unfortunately, it doesn’t work.

Self-improvement is like a healing crystal- expensive, sits in the corner of your house, and never really does anything.

I’m not saying we can’t get better, I’m saying ultra-psycho routines won’t replace the need for hard work.

Waking up at 3 am every morning and posting “Rise and Grind” isn’t going to beat actual quality production.

The fact is, if you just do something you’re good at and people like it, you’ll make it. That’s it. Keep an open mind, and catch yourself when you’re being a bitch and you’ll grow more than the guy who meditates twice a day, nofap’s, and fasts for 16 hours.

This isn’t actual self improvement.

It’s just someone else’s bullshit routine that you are little-brothering for.

It’s like learning Warren Buffett eats Cinnamon toast crunch cereal for breakfast everyday, so you do the same, expecting to now be some genius investor.

Drop the act and do shit you’re interested in.

That’s the only real success formula.

#StayFoolish

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What’s up fool,

How many licks does it take to get to the center of tootsie pop?

I’m still wondering.

But despite not having all the answers, I’ll tell you I’ve gotten unbelievably lucky for this past year. Right before the global pandemic, I was so depressed, lost, and directionless- at one point, I actually started to think it might not ever get better.

In just a year, I got my dream career and the funniest thing about it- a part of me always knew this is exactly what I wanted to do.

So, why couldn’t I just do it all those years back?

I wasn’t the person I needed to be.

We hear it all the time, “find your passion, try things, explore, do what you are…” but they never tell you WHEN.

For the life of me, I couldn’t help myself even already having a taste of what I loved, because before you can get to drive- you need to get to neutral.

You might be f**ked up.

In reality, we all are. That puts us a few miles away from the starting line- and driving in reverse is counter-productive.

You can’t look at what others are doing. It won’t work for you. The only thing you need to do is figure out what’s keeping you stuck, and attack that head on.

The weird part about this, as soon as you get to the problem and start solving for it- the car automatically shifts, and your life will move forward as a byproduct.

Don’t be afraid to take time working on yourself.

The actual order is you first, then all your wants.

#StayFoolish

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Sundays Business hours: Closed

I’m not going to post a random, meaningless blog- just because. Today, I’m taking the day off.

That said, I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t at least give you something to chew on.

Here’s a small realization that we all shy away from, but can free us if we embrace: You’re a deadman walking and your only job is to grant your wish.

Think about what makes you feel alive, and incorporate that in your day to day life.

Quit judging. Start Living. #StayFoolish

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