I’m at this life phase where there isn’t much to complain about.
Nothing is bad, but it’s not awesome either. It’s just meh. And I know “meh” is a privilege. If I stayed this course, kept improving on my craft– I’d be a success without a doubt (by my standards too).
Thing is… I’m painfully bored.
I want more action but keep wavering.
Do you have this?
You find an activity that feeds you, it lights your soul on fire, every single time you do it– it gives you enough energy to bypass human needs like sleep and food…
…BUT you only DO this activity when it’s gifted to you.
When it’s your free time on the line— for some reason, you have no urge to do it at all?
It’s like the thing is only fun receiving but not making.
Take for example– those types of people who move to Hollywood hoping to be stars, having never studied the craft or taken any classes for anything…
… they only want to get it (be discovered, put in someones movie, given fame and money).
They have no desire to make it.
AND I don’t see this talked about in the goal-setting tribes of self-improvement.
We talk about chasing what you like, when you should be chasing what you can DO.
There are desires you wish for and desires you build. Those aren’t always the same. In fact, I think for a lot of people they’re different.
I like Directing videos as a W-2, but in my free time… why don’t I enjoy it? Why doesn’t it feed me when it’s all me?
Laziness– that’d be an easy write-off.
I think the setting changes the activity.
Taking a look at my scenario, the part I love about it is the people. The studio is already setup for me, I just bring the script and tell them what to do. Theres already a cameraman and actors… but if that was all on me to set up and build… well, never mind.
No longer care for it as much.
Here’s my point: Love your gifts. Love your opportunities. But what you BUILD has to work for you. If you end up not practicing your “love” on weekends, that isn’t the thing to build.
It’s just a romantic getaway.
Instead of trying to recreate that in your free time, build what you can to build a better life. Maybe that’s a humble blog (thanks for reading 😉 ) or maybe it’s a sidehustle.
Point is, gift-taking is not the same as making.
#FOOLFWD
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