It took me awhile to see this.
And now that I do I’m not sure how to fix it, but somewhere along the way– we drew lines. There was a split in consciousness.
Something tells me that the only way to resolve this issue is to bring it all out to the surface– everything.
The human being is dual natured.
Everyday we choose between different parts of ourselves. When you do hard shit– you let the best self drive and when you sit there and rot… well, you’re killing yourself.
Maybe the split happens because of socialization or maybe it’s a defense mechanism. I.E. you know that certain personality traits are unacceptable so you hide them, but as soon as you reach adulthood they crave an outlet.
A better way to look at depression is disconnection.
You are disconnected from yourself– your deeper, real, self.
The solution? You have to play for the same team.
First, you’ll have to re-get to know yourself. What does this other self want? What are their goals, opinions, likes and dislikes? What do they stand for and how should they be expressed?
Then you’ll want to find ways to bring it to the surface, in a healthy way of course.
You need a peace treaty.
The only way to come to terms with your inner self is to understand them, and figure out where you both agree.
That way, you can both go for the same goals.
In this way– you become whole.
If this sounds abstract, poetic, or even absurd– understand this is a nicer way of describing most peoples self hate. The people who while ambitious, go home and sit in front of the TV.
Or the people who have a hard time setting boundaries or being alone.
It applies to all of us.
So forget judging it, work with it.
Get on your own team.
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