During our want-repreneurial phase, my best friend and I would often go to this same spot.
It was a park surrounded by ginormous mansions, where the further up you walked through it– the less it became a park and more a community.
Anyway, back in the day we’d come here and hash out our lives via shootin’ the shit. We’d talk about goals, dreams, wants and needs, and of course– present struggles.
If I’m being real, it was almost always struggles.
In the span of two years, we’ve gained nearly unrecognizable lives. So, I had the idea to go back to ol’ faithful– like reading an old journal that might embarrass you, and re-walk memory lane.
We get there and we’re immediately flooded with memories (like the childhood haircut variety)– reminders of the type of losers we were. This isn’t low self esteem talking, it’s just adolescence.
I honestly don’t understand what created that struggle and how I got stuck in that place?
If I had to make a guess– I’d say withdrawing from life led to an increasingly delusional mind.
I keep my journals, memories, and all my mistakes at the forefront of my mind. It isn’t to make me feel bad– it’s just data.
Anytime I withdraw from life and try to all-or-nothing my goals, I immediately shoot up on some depresso-espresso and become ultra delusional.
What created those shit years back then– was doing nothing.
Nothing is the worst thing you can do for yourself. I look back and laugh at the imbecile I was, we both were.
You’re not allowed to worry about goals and vision when you’re stuck. Your only job in that moment is to get to neutral.
Neutral is work. Progress. Daily movement.
It’s simple.
Life is momentum, and when we’re not moving– we drain our lives of lifeforce.
Keep your mistakes at the top of mind because then when you feel like slipping, you can stay strong and you won’t.
That’s why we all have a memory lane– it’s a benefit.
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