Note to self: “calling / purpose” is great, but that comes after you secure the bag.
The other day, my best friend came over and we kicked it. He and I have very similar journeys and right now are experiencing similar financial successes (by no accident– we both want freedom).
Before we got into it, laughing at our shared search history– my mind went down its default mode of thinking: wanting more, not sure how to get it, not sure whats more even look like…
…and before I knew it, I was feeling angry at not knowing my “why” and “calling.” Even after all my growth, it goes to show you it’s still easy to slip up into your negative patterns (especially when you start looking at others successes, never compare yourself dammit!).
Anyways—
Soon, I found myself feeling those all-too familiar moods– the unhappy restlessness coming from my obsessive need for some bullshit purpose.
But he and I started talking, and I quickly let it go because I don’t want to make myself miserable worrying about finding some all or nothing idiotic passion.
We started talking about how quickly our lives changed as a result of being practical.
We laughed at our old struggles, how we used to meet up complaining about finding our spiritual mission in life— while being broke AF.
And then we both realized in that moment, DAMN we made it out! STOP and realize you made it out.
I’m never going back to how I used to be!!!!
Just remembering where I’m coming from, the things I used to complain about, how I used to view things– I will never do that again.
Building might not be the most fun thing you do, but it’s waaay better than searching. We used to obsess over finding a calling– when we never needed that, truth is neither of us cared. I don’t know how we got so hung up on that step in the first place.
Get your money right first.
Maybe for some of you calling does come first, but the way we are and were– we only ever prioritized freedom– so it’s strange that we were stuck on something that never motivated us in the first place.
After laughing at our dumbass selves and realizing how far we’ve come, that perspective filled me with massive gratitude.
And now, I’m back on track.
So, a quick reminder when you’re feeling like shite about your life: Remember where you’re coming from.
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