The other day I found myself thinking new for the first time.
No anger, no emotional turmoil, no delusional dreaming— just pure acceptance for everything in my life.
This is different for me, very different.
I used to be someone who wanted to change everything, and all the time. I’d drive myself miserable seeing the worst in people, comparing myself to others, and constantly wishing to be something else.
But lately, I haven’t been thinking like that.
For someone who has always been emotionally intense, yesterday I felt strength for the first time.
The storm came like it always does, but this time it did not move me.
All those years of experimenting, of constantly learning and trying to be more, failing and starting over– none were wasted. It compounded, and that’s what I wanted to pass onto you.
Don’t ever stop. Even if it looks like nothing is helping you, it will in the long run.
Back then, I wondered how I’d use all the useless shit I learned. I read, I practiced new disciplines, but still I’d fall back into my own weak-habits. The difference for me was I never stopped. I never wrote myself off– despite how much I failed, I just kept moving.
One day you’ll see it.
Everything you’re doing will all of a sudden compound, and you’ll be far better for it. You’ll be stronger, composed, wiser, and more fulfilled.
It’s not like I have everything figured out all of a sudden, but this feeling, where I am right now, is worth everything to me.
This isn’t temporary happiness, this isn’t circumstantial.
This is character.
Compounded from trial and failure.
For the first time, I’ve let go of my own prison. All the things that used to have a hold on me– don’t.
Through understanding, we end suffering.
I didn’t until now.
Wherever you are and whatever you are doing, continue no matter what. Push forward, and endure.
You’ll eventually meet your own potential.
#AlwaysForward
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