You know what’s unbelievable to me? How little we actually change.
Don’t think so?
Keep a private journal for over a year– and watch. Those thoughts, complaints, desires, they almost never change. Even when you finally are able to pull yourself out of the loop, it’ll always be your soft spot in the brain– one you’ll forever need to guard against.
So this selfish post, not unlike all my others, is a letter/reminder to future me.
The reason you don’t get to pursue that all or nothing passion and desire– is because it doesn’t exist for you (STOP COMPARING YOUR PATH TO OTHERS).
Love never motivated you, so why would passion?
When I read those journals and see where I’m coming from, it’s gross. Destiny, purpose, I need, I want, my calling…. bitchin’ bitchin’ bitchin’.
You threw away every single day whining about some imaginary desire that if you somehow lucked into and got– you wouldn’t know it. What a complete waste of life, and to be fair– you’ve been doing well.
For the last year, you’ve not only managed to pull away from this behavior, but to deepen your relationship with reality.
I immediately saw success when I leaned into the present moment. (LAW #1).
It turns out, mastery fulfills me far more than anything imaginary ever did– and so everything in front of me will receive total commitment.
I’ve lost my need to chase false dreams. It’s just some flaw in my wiring that constantly seeks Neverland.
Being practical, being ruthlessly rational, has cured my life of every detractor– including and especially, me.
This post is a note to self, the most important one knowing my weakness, never walk through the mirage.
When you start dancing with devils, you can’t see what’s important.
Stay Practical, Stay Present, F**k Fantasy.
#FoolForward
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