Hey Fool.
Is there anything *supposedly* good for you, that makes you feel like shit? If that thing is remotely related to your genetic blind spots, don’t attack it directly.
For most people, having purpose and direction is incredibly important. It’s uplifting and provides a greater resilience…. but for me, who has craved an all consuming reason for existence since my inception, it’s a blackhole.
Blackholes are the areas of our lives that we want more than anything, where we’re delusional, unreasonable, childlike… for whatever reason, we’re always drawn to this area but reality is distorted here.
Everyone has their own blackholes.
Moving towards them directly never leads to any good– you’ll get sucked in and spit out. A lot of us won’t ever learn, we just keep repeating the cycle (think the person who wants to be a singer, but can’t hear how awful they sound– and pursue it forever).
Anytime I’ve chased my delusional dreams– fantasies, the thing I think I want for no apparent reason, my life becomes complete chaos. I lose my progress, stability, and end up having to start over.
The result of you believing in your magic, in these fantasies, is being stuck in a spiral of never getting ahead.
Ruthless practicality is the only way to become a better astronaut.
Once you’re more skilled, then maybe you can see the blackhole for what it is and possibly navigate it, if that’s still the goal.
But all of us share the same first step– we have to see our blindspots and then get better of them.
I suffered from imagination (and still do) and always will. That sounds spiritual, but what it looks like is my mind constantly craving the world, achievement on the biggest stage, accolades and success, and my life to have ZERO dull or boring moments…. is that really a lot to ask for?
What I came to realize is my mind is wrong in this area. When it comes to career and purpose, I don’t trust it. This is how I got ahead.
Knowing that reality is distorted for me here, I instead went practical. I considered my skills, my temperament and natural inclinations, and started there.
That’s how I began a new career, got financially ahead, and started building a life I enjoy.
Don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t resemble the craving blackhole at all. But who cares, now I have a life.
Waiting for those fantasies robs you.
FUCK desire. What can you build?
Stop wanting. Start small.
#FoolForward
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