There’s this concept of self I always liked.
Basically, you’re not just you, you’re a community of you’s.
You from the past, present, future, and all the potentials of each of those you’s.
If you thought making decisions was hard before, try doing it considering all this crap, now it’s near impossible.
But we can make it smaller and easier.
The truth is, theres really 2 you’s that’ll drive throughout your lifetime. Actual you (the watcher) and character you (the person you present, or player).
You can and do use your player.
You designed them after all, for that reason. It keeps the world at a safe distance, people can’t totally hurt you, and it can make up for any character flaws society doesn’t like.
But here’s the danger.
Use your character too much and you start thinking you’re that, you start making life decisions for that poster of self.
Then you become disconnected from actual you— the person watching this whole thing unfold, and all of a sudden, depression.
You don’t know why but you feel a void.
To become whole, to live fully, you need to live as you.
That might require tricking the brain, but first, you’ll have to learn to see who’s watching from inside the mask.
That takes observation.
Don’t look medusa directly in the face, she’ll stone you. Watch, afterwards. Reflect, ask questions. Why did my character do that? Why’d they say that?
Follow them to get to you.
-Fool
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