When I’m chatting with strangers they assume I’m some enlightened writer who’s figured out the game and how to win it.
They think I don’t slip, but if they’d only see me with my own family they would quickly learn that when I do get low, I hit so much lower than they ever could.
I don’t love that about me, but I don’t hate it either.
Take a long trip away from what you know, away from all the people you’re the lowest around, and the only thing you’ll be met with is who you actually are.
That’s why I never liked being around family for too long– it isn’t them, it’s what they bring out of me, which is my past.
We all have our own calls to evolution.
Who we need to become in order to succeed.
If you’re pissed off inside the home, you need to leave it. If you find yourself in a mood more often than not, “that mood” isn’t a bad thing. It’s your values speaking from within you, signaling the need for change.
Most people instead try to rationalize that feeling– they think, “I should learn to be happy, or be better around my family” which is stupid AF.
You didn’t choose your values, you didn’t choose your mind or personality, you were BORN to them.
Your soul speaks to you daily, it calls for you to take specific action.
And if the signal tells you disappearing is good for you, then make like a magician.
This doesn’t mean you should be an asshole (that’s the part I’m still working on), but it does mean negotiating isn’t a solution.
Pay attention to where you thrive, and GO THERE.
STOP thinking, rationalizing, and making it deeper than it is.
The CALL is for those who hear it, pick up the phone.
–FOOL
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