Month: November 2021

Under the Influence & Ur Cheap Hollywood Dreams

Published November 10, 2021 by V

You have to be afraid of your way to stop doing it, and why? Because your lame and fluffy cloud-head isn’t moving you forward.

I think society is slowly retiring the word “dreams” — in the future, maybe we only use it when explaining deja vu’s and our untapped psychic powers.

Dreams are cheap.

Besides entertainment value, they contribute next to nothing for our lives. In fact, they may even do more harm than good.

Some of us feel oddly accomplished just by having a dream, it keeps you from feeling like a total loser because theres something to hold onto…. even though it isn’t real. I think the nature of dreams makes us delay all action.

I’ve seen this in everyone I know.

They point to a bigass star– and obviously need a lot of rocket fuel to get there… but they also need a rocket, a rocket license, and a map.

Maybe they plan.

So they “do the google” and find the “how to do this dream of urz breakdown.” And now they know, it takes this much $$ and you’ll need various resources– of which you have none. Years pass, they’re pursuing the having of these resources… and now they’re too old for the dream, so they say.

Have they moved forward and really even tried?

Of course not.

This is what dreams do for most people.

They cloud your head, vision, and life. They make you obsess over something but without working towards it and honestly, they’re completely unnecessary.

Fuck a dream, dream a goal.

Practically set a goal for yourself that’s worth achieving and never stop til you get it. We’re human beings– we need carrots on a stick to chase. It’s better if you don’t totally love it, but just want it for practical reasons. This will keep you level and unemotional– which leads to better strategy and action.

By nature, everyones default is to fall in love with their dream. That’s a failure formula waiting to be concocted.

All you need to do is build something you’re built to build, and you’ll reach a goal. Do this and somehow the universe will miraculously reward your efforts and your life will be better than anything you’ve ever dreamed of.

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Destiny Thieves: Why is Everyone a fangirl?

Published November 9, 2021 by V

This little light of mine…

…can’t shine if yours is brighter.

Even the “successful” people fall prey to this. They dedicate their lives studying and copying other successful people.

We went from: What would Jesus do? to What would Marcus Aurelius do?

And because we’re living in this weird time where everything is documented and copy-able, its seen as good practice to emulate your favorite dead person.

I don’t believe your success if your life shadows someone else.

The fact that so many of these people, still wealthy and seemingly successful, hold onto dear life proves they don’t really live.

“I want to live forever” is a disguise for “I don’t live at all”.

No one who copies other people lives fully– they’re disconnected from who they are and thus what they’re meant to do.

I’ve coined this phrase: Destiny thieves. People who copy other successful peoples path, and sacrifice their own in the process. Trading your light, your sun, to become a planet in someone else’s orbit.

Fangirling is at best, a hobby, don’t make a career out of it.

The type of fulfillment that comes from being connected to your work isn’t something that can be manufactured.

It hits different.

So, forget “what would turd do” and ask yourself what could I do?

The call is for those who hear it.

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Get Off The Struggle Bus At Any Stop

Published November 8, 2021 by V

Everyone preaches hard work.

You should “love the grind” as they put it– but if you’re not seeing any returns in life then fuck your hustle.

And you most likely won’t if you’re destiny stealing.

I don’t believe in numbers 2-10. Everyone is a one, every single one of us has a path, it’s your life– how could you not?

I think the real challenge of today is not so much finding it, but staying the course. There’s so many cool things out there, and the second yours turns meh– you’ll be tempted to leave. And that would be the biggest mistake.

It’s not that it doesn’t take some work, but it definitely won’t be as hard as the rest of life. When you’re on your path things go smoother. Life still happens, but becomes far more manageable.

So, how do you get off the struggle bus? Firstly, stop watching gurus.

Those guys are irrelevant idiots who fog your mind with motivational garbage and flood your system with junk info. You need to reconnect with yourself and if you’re not one to journal and ponder, just give yourself some silence. Go do something solo.

It’s also worth mentioning, the more serious you take this –the less likely you are to see any success.

When I obsessed over finding my life’s work, I somehow moved far as shit away from it. That mindset guarantees never finding it.

It takes playfulness and objectivity.

Being playful will open your curiosity and being objective will get you practical.

What I’m doing now is what I did as a kid, it’s who I am. BUT I would have never chosen this myself, I only landed here when I let go of trying to find it.

It doesn’t take years of searching or hard work, or sacrifice and being broke.

That’s those damn goo-roos selling courses who gave you that idea. I found this path and got on it in one day.

It looked like this:

Realization came, I’m delusional (we all are). So, I can’t see reality and I keep chasing random moments of happiness that end very badly for me.
I’m moody and extreme, which often leads to me withdrawing from life. But I know my skills are good for certain creative fields– so with these two traits: Where could I go where I’d stick?
What could I do no matter what?
Landed on writing.
Launched a blog and had a rule that I had to post every single day. This led to scoring a client, this led to grabbing a career.

That’s the path.

It’s not oversimplified. What could you do on your own right now, that you could stick with?

The answer to that is the start of your path.

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No one wants to play… but everyone wants the prize (my life philosophy)

Published November 7, 2021 by V

We’re living in a very controversial time right now.

One wrong exhale, and you can cancel yourself off the internet, which is huge since real life doesn’t matter anymore.

Without twitter and facebook, we’d be nothing… how meta?

Anyways, today every single person has an opinion. Even more unique, they’re not curious about yours– only if you agree with them. Lunacy has reached its peak.

The people who claim that they’re balanced, no different. You can feel them tentacling you in conversation, probing for your views, not because they respect you or want to get to know you, but they don’t associate with the other side.

Both sides do this, it’s really just what’s your choice of crazy?

In comes my side, a party of two– myself and my brother. Our perspective is a little different than yours.

I love all of you fighting to make a difference, but don’t point and call me out in a crowd when I’m trying to get bread.

I don’t associate with loss.

And eventually, every side takes its turn losing.

So, here’s my view for you recruiters wasting your time: Everyone wants the prize, but no one wants to play.

I’m not going to move off grid and live in the woods to keep my so called freedom. I want to be rich and famous, so if I have to give up some freedom to play– I will. There’s no planet I incarnated to be broke, isolated, and charmin-ultra-soft free.

You’re talking about privacy but have an iphone. You’re talking about health but eat genetically modified cardboard. You’re talking about freedom but depend on every luxury of society.

Everything is pay to play. Everything is a trade off.

You do it everyday, and then in the same breath turn around and draw a line on the weirdest possible thing—

it’s looney.

And don’t misunderstand me, I’m cool with it. I love rebels.

I just love winning more. I’m not going to give anyone advice, because no one really wants it. The majority will read this and wonder if I’m Blue or Red? Pro or Against?

But while you take a stand and show everyone that you’re unhire-able, your false gods and all the celebrities the public worships stay winning, and pretend. Actors don’t act in movies, they get paid to act in public.

How could you think someone whos rich cares about your small life?

They say they do? So, you believe them?

C’mon. You know better.

A lot of you will read this and think I’m somehow fake or disloyal. And for those of you that do, you’ll only find pain here. This blog is for intelligent people, not mascots.

For the rest of you, my only advice is this: Before you take a stand or make any big decisions, ask yourself: Is this how I picture my life? Is this what I desire?

Act on that, not others BS.

It’s a helluva time to be alive, shit is awesome. But you’ll get in life what you trade– it’s a universal law.

We all pay to play.

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If Fear is the mind killer… this is the Life liquidator ⛔️

Published November 6, 2021 by V

I love DUNE. I’ve read all the books way before there was ever even talks of a movie, but that movie was fire too.

That said, your only mind killer isn’t fear.

It’s also the wrong attitude.

It’s insane how much this impacts every single aspect of your life.

A negative attitude will just about crush any chance of improvement. It’ll cause you to spit in the face of opportunity and cheat on the rented time allotted to you.

I wouldn’t worry so much about fear. Wasting life is a far more imminent danger– and it’s easy to do nowadays, mix in your shit outlook and you’ve just about done it.

A negative attitude is a life liquidator.

I write a lot about attitude because it’s easily one of the hardest things for me to maintain. Different minds have different wiring, and mine is wired to play compare and contra—st-I-don’t-have-that.

It’s SUPER lame.

It’s not like I’m staring at Lambos crying about my all too present desire for one, it’s more being in love with the idea of fulfillment.

Anyone else relate to that?

You’re in love with the concept of love, but not actual love.

REAL life demands compromise– you can refuse all you want, but then be alone, living off grid, cooking the milk.

I think we’re all guilty of forgetting this.

The Trade.

There is and always will be a pay to play, and if you don’t want to it’s fine, but you can’t complain when you’re instantly disqualified.

We all want our cake and to eat it too.

But it comes down to the game you think is worth playing for— wanna be fulfilled? What game aren’t you playing?

And how can you be entered?

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Cigarette Smoking Drama Students

Published November 5, 2021 by V

You know the type. Social outcasts, everything is “Lame, dude” and their version of excitement is blasting hard metal while laying flat, poured over a meadow.

Each of us has this. Even if you weren’t this person in high school– it’s in you.

We’re in love with our inner goth.

I’ve been learning about personality types recently, and how to overcome oneself. The way they teach this is your brain has different muscles responsible for different things.

Some muscles are overdeveloped, while others are nearly nonexistent. Your overdeveloped muscles are the problem. The reason you keep having the same recurring life obstacles is because you don’t address this inner imbalance— the inner goth.

Your go-to way of living is using that over-developed muscle. Think of that as your “inner popular kid” or jock.

Given a choice between jock or goth, most without thinking will jocko every time. Problem is, gotho is what leads to building.

If for example, you’re some ultra extrovert, always out and about, hanging, eventually you have to pull back and be alone… at least some of the time. Otherwise when will you build?

Or maybe you’re this curious person. Always taking in new information, well if you want to use any of that– you’ll have to sit down and organize the thing some time.

Our mind CAN shift between different modes, but most of us refuse. We’d rather keep doing jocko and because of that, we get stuck.

Now you’re binge-watching motivation videos all day, and addicted to “getting better” but you’re not actually doing shit.

Improvement isn’t a book or video. It’s goth. It’s taking that weak muscle of the brain and feeding it.

If you find yourself having any inner conflict or you’re stuck in life. Incongruence is likely the problem– who have you been neglecting?

Jocko or gotho? Either way, everyone has to be able to play.

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Dancing With Delusion: How To Alpha Fear Forward

Published November 4, 2021 by V

Each and every one of us is motivated by fear, and the majority of our lives is determined by how we interact (or don’t) with our fear.

Everyone wants The Hero’s Journey in theory, but we consciously cheat on it every single day.

We live like kids but crave adult lives and then wonder why we’re depressed. Your frustration comes from incongruence, you’re not living by what you value.

A child fears being stuck. That same child as an adult fears not building anything to ever secure freedom in the future. It’s the same fear, but better developed so that one can move forward.

That is the idea behind ALPHA fears.

With the latter, you’ll end up embracing opportunity and sticking to whatever necessary to have some successful future. The child fear will lead you to frogger job-ing and thus always starting over.

We have to bring out what’s in us, and to do that we have to destroy what doesn’t match up with it.

There’s no middle ground.

There’s no reality where you have it all.

Everything in life is a trade off. To be fulfilled, and become an individual you have to leave. You have to go on your own journey and a lot of times that means the tribe will hate you.

You’ll lose friends and family, but in the end it’s worth it, because you’ll become someone you admire and respect.

Take whatever you fear, and blow it up– alpha fear it. Worried about people not liking you? How about you living a shit life and not ever being able to help anyone because you never evolved? Fearing being stuck? How about never building anything and having nothing because you always chase random delusions.

Alpha your fears and then use them to take action.

We’re supposed to burn in the flames of uncertainty. That’s where we evolve as human beings.

Take the call.

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What I Have To Do To Overcome Self Hate

Published November 3, 2021 by V

You regularly cheat on yourself– sometimes for others, sometimes for yourself.

The reason we fall into self-hate is because we don’t honor, define, and live by our own values.

In short, you’re a cheater.

No one is born hating themselves, but everyone is born to specific values.

This is where my stand is different from everyone on the internet. Fuck nurture, it’s all nature.

And if you want any semblance of a good life you’ll figure out the values you actually have and start living them.

For example, I didn’t choose to value eating clean, being in shape, staying active, and being independent in every sense of the word. Those sound like everyones values. But when I cheat on them, any one of them, even a little– I start to hate myself.

What is that?

Think of it as your soul hating the character it’s playing as.

Your interests and values guide you to maximum development, to becoming and reaching your potential. When you don’t follow that inner voice, that inner voice lashes out.

As hard as it is, don’t take it personal.

Pay attention.

Ask yourself: Why am i angry with myself?

This is how you begin to define your values and from there, live by them. I recently started clean eating. I was always in shape, but usually I’d eat whatever I want, snack too much, feel like garbage, then spend the rest of the day obsessively trying to burn it off. Stupid and disgusting.

Now, I eat clean– don’t worry about it, and focus on my work. Win-win.

And I feel awesome, I feel self-love and self-respect.

I’m moving onto the rest. Which look like having something I can give myself to– a craft, my work. I value that. I value boldness, but also mastery. It’s up to you to create yourself.

So, feeling angry with yourself?

That’s just the actor you’re mad at. Don’t take it personal, it’s not feelings but data.

Figure out what value you’ve broken, and moving forward be deliberate to never break it again. Start with just one value. This will lead to others without you getting overwhelmed.

There is no permanent self hate, you just don’t want to act like this current self.

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Who Wrote Those Journals?

Published November 2, 2021 by V

When I tell you I’ve greatly underestimated the value of true friendship, I don’t just mean fun and excitement.

True friendship tests you. It pushes back on your bullshit, but at the same time– it points you in the right direction.

Everything I did on my own was naturally delusional. My introspection was delusional.

I kept leaving what I was naturally inclined for and choosing random paths that I tried to persuade myself were for me.

Reading my journals– who the hell wrote them? How is it possible that you have the right memories with the wrong endings?

Don’t choose what you like or want, choose what you repeatedly do.

Easily the greatest gift from my brotherhood is this— both of us stopped judging ourselves and got REAL. Stop trying to be something you’re not, and go all the way in on what you naturally do.

You’ll know when you interact with the actual thing– when you’re on the real path. It’ll make you feel more yourself, you’ll be freer. Boredom won’t reach you so easily, and something in you will light up.

You’ll have more energy, excitement, and engagement.

Whatever it is you think you want, entertain the fact that you could be completely wrong. Because what’s better than a life of fun is fulfillment.

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Where are you weird?

Published November 1, 2021 by V

The person who must have something, the one that is so desperate to get that thing they’ve given up on every other unrelated aspect of life– they never get it.

But that part time casual, the one who is practical and steadily works towards that aim, they end up achieving it.

Desperation is delusions cousin.

As soon as you need something, all-or-nothing need it, do or die type of desire– contrary to popular guru opinion, you don’t get it.

In fact, your mind makes that thing you so desperately want bigger than what it is, it distorts it, and now you’re further removed from it.

You end up being all weird when you have to take action or approach it, and when faced with opportunity, you’ll self sabotage. We all have this– the only question is where are you weird? Ever notice the areas that come so easily to you, you pretty much don’t care about? I have friends who really value having social circles….

…and then theres me, who literally goes hermit, unplugs, and missing for months.

Some think it’s rude, but you know how artists get— we disappear regularly in the name of creativity.

Point is, it’s me who easily gets the social circles out of all the people I know. Easily. I send text, they say yes, we social-vert.

Never understood what was difficult there.

I get weird with creating.

“Oh, we’re making something?” face gets all itchy, I start thinking grandiose, the playfulness wears off, and now it’s all-or-nothing thinking.

The solution? Apply the same method from the areas of life you’re effortless in– but to your desire. To do this, you have to let go.

You have to make it smaller, not bigger than it is.

You have to see it as just another thing, nothing more or less.

Trust that if it’s true to you— to who you are, you’ll return to it. If not, you’ll find what is. Either way, you’ll find what you were really looking for.

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