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I fell into quicksand on a dumb hike…

and when I almost sank into another dimension, my life didn’t flash before my eyes.

Actually, my focus was sharpened.

Like an animal fighting for survival, everything other than my footing disappeared.

Just like that, no distractions. 

Quiet.

Focus.

Afterwards, I kept thinking about what a close friend said to me, about focus.

And after this 3 day break— I took action.

I edited my life.

I planned. 

Well… not really, BUT I looked at the next 5 years and what I’d need to do to accomplish my goals.

Annnnnd the verdict was in: 

I’m OFF TRACK. 

Basically— I’m “succeeding” but not moving at all. 

My current “wins” have nothing to do with what I want. 

There’s TOO MUCH going on and all of it has little to do with my specific dream. 

And why?

Because I lacked a singular vision to keep me on track.

Turns out, filthy rich on a beach isn’t specific enough to guide decision making, which left me being all over the place as usual. 

Scale isn’t the answer. 

Subtraction is.

Focus.

I have more than enough to sustain and build. 

My mistake was ADDING more. 

My new answer is to maintain what’s left, but build the actual dream— the singular thing I really want. 

Keep in mind:

If the pilot keeps parachuting, they’re on the wrong plane. 

When it comes to lessons from art– the best movies & series have this one concept that always stands out. 

Basically, lame protagonist character who wasted their life gets a second chance, a do-over. 

They go back in time to whatever period of life they waddled through BUT now– with the wisdom of their future self, they go ALL-OUT. 

Suddenly, the circumstances they got hung up on before —don’t matter at all.

Not only that, but they’re leaning into every aspect of life without any reservations. 

What always happens- despite obstacles or their personality traits, they create a FAR BETTER LIFE. 

In their return-to-past, do-over phase, they become the popular expander. 

They improve everyones lives they come across and take on the role of the ego-less hero archetype. 

They have the WISDOM to know that most “problems” won’t last– so they don’t get hung up, stuck, overthinking, and aren’t self-contained. 

They don’t hold back. 

And it always got me thinking: Why can’t we just do that now, and pretend we’ve got the wisdom from our future selves? 

Well, not only can we– it’s actually the key to TRANSFORMING your entire life without changing anything. 

Attitude is what determines the quality of our lives, and not only that– it’s what determines our successes. 

The good life isn’t a condition needing to be met (making more money, changing cities, etc.). 

It’s just LEANING ALL THE WAY IN to the present, and you only do that with the knowledge of knowing this is all coming to an end. 

Think back to your youth, how you wasted it, how you fought over petty things, held grudges over insignificant issues, think back to what you’d do differently? 

Most of us rob ourselves every single day. 

We don’t say how we feel. 

We don’t go for it. 

We don’t tell that person we like them or take that new opportunity. 

We don’t step up or speak up. 

We throw ourselves in the background of the present, because we live in our fearful future focused minds. 

Instead, we should pretend.

Pretend we got a second chance, that this is our past and we returned to make it right– knowing we once messed it all up. 

Now, how will you play? 

I’m not a fan of the “working for others” concept.

Never was.

I hate watching people sacrifice their individuality to jerk their bosses off and gargle whats left in front of their “peers” (omg they’re so ambitious… 🤢 🤮 ).

And for a long time I was a dumb, broke, social outcast– who hid behind the wantrepreneur idea because of this— and that wasn’t the right answer either.

Look–

climbing the 9-to-5 game after being an idiot for so long has definitely leveled me up, with skills and experiences and even socially.

So I won’t say it’s completely worthless, there’s some upfront value. 9-to-5s are the new college— but you gotta graduate sometime.

I was right:

CORPORATIONS ARE FOR ROBOTS.

I work with robots who think themselves people.

Sad part is, they imagine they’re innovative– every single one of them. They think they’re bringing something new to the table, and they’re stuck in that weird pimply life phase– where you can’t separate your ideas from who you are as a person…

… so any negative feedback has them gearing up for war (going to their work papa to snitch– manager).

Jobs create fearful environments, no matter the culture.

If you’re afraid of losing something, how can you be creative?

I get we can’t say literally whatever thought poptarts out of our mind– but not even the truth?

I’m not talking about politics, you anti-free speechers.

I’m talking about the CEO’s garbage ideas– or the partners disgusting attention whoring marketing tactics.

I can’t say– your writing doesn’t make any sense, these graphics look like they’re promoting porn print, and our “team-building” meetings are a weird collection of people holding their elbows just people watching.

What if I was hired to fix it?

Nope– it’s still got to be their idea.

Every single one of us needs to have something that can’t be taken– you should be RUTHLESS with it.

The truth is jobs are an easy escape. It’s nice to go somewhere, clock in/ clock out and not worry about hunting for a paycheck.

It’s nice… in the short term.

But the trade offs just aren’t worth it.

No role except the one you carve out for yourself– will let you be an individual. And the only way to be irreplaceable is to be an individual.

So, theres your answer.

You can like what you have, you can hate it– but know that you don’t really have anything. So you might as well commit to something you can own.

We’re worthless, actually worthless.

The money we make, garbage we consume, time we waste— all for nothing.

Few of us are self sustaining.

We need.

Friends, family, distractions…

Not to be alone.

Not to be reminded how small we are.

We’ve got our “potential”

The most disgusting word in the english dictionary.

Potential is the fallback self esteem massage to disguise waste. You don’t need disguise.

You have nothing.

Realizing that is the BEST FUCKING THING you could ever do for yourself.

I am nothing. Not special, not chosen, and my life means absolutely fucking nothing to anyone— no one. The people who’d miss me are nobodys— we’re all nobodys who can’t even prove we exist. TF are you taking serious?

You have anxiety because you think something matters— not you?

Realize the gift.

You’re not a blank slate, but you’ve got open road.

Drive.

Only a nobody, only a nothing– CAN BECOME.

I CHOOSE to become.

I CHOOSE to build.

RID YOURSELF OF POTENTIAL AND WAKE UP TO LIFE

My adulting has been semi-nihilistic and oddly liberating as a result.

I went from wanting it all and believing in more (as a kid I talked to the sky– #chosenONE shit), to not giving AF and being fulfilled by simpler pleasures: materialism.

Let me explain.

I wanted the personal “why” and I REALLY wanted the big ol’ grandiose “purpose.”

Well… I didn’t really want it, but I liked the idea that my greatness was the answer to this fucked up planet.

AND Damn did I love the idea of everyone having a special calling, something greater to serve, to commit to— ya know, fate and shit.

But those things just don’t move me anymore.

I went down all of those rabbit holes, the ones that were hokey woo-woo, the more concrete scientific and the “laws of universe” bullshit and I can tell you this:

NONE OF IT is the answer.

There is no answer.

It’s all just a bunch of motivational bullshit to convince you to get off your ass and do something.

The truth is, there is no fate.

Theres your start, your end, and the shit sandwich in the middle.

This probably sounds harsh, maybe a little depressing even, but it shouldn’t—because the greatest joys in life don’t come from glamour and illusion, but unplanned surprises and obstacles.

It’s the detours that make the adventure, not the mapped out trip.

We all fall for this idea that we need fixing, we need course-correcting. It’s cool to blame society and fuck it, I’m not above it either– this one is society.

Who the hell said being broken is bad? What the hell does fixed look like? Probably those weirdo-wired up never eating sugar entrepreneur types.

If you like something, do more of it. If you don’t, don’t.

But don’t convince yourself there is some “reason” behind the madness of your life. There isn’t.

This shit is what it is, and yeah– it likes to play unfair.

Match it if you feel inclined, but don’t submit.

It aint that deep, just MOVE.

#Fools

The e-learning market size is expected to hit one trillion dollars before 2030— so you mf’s are LOST.

Even when you have the answers, you want different answers, better answers, to then sit and do more of nothing with.

I’m guilty of it too.

Who doesn’t want to believe in more? It’s fun to think the stars decide our fate and this is all somehow part of the process.

Maybe theres truth to it. Or maybe you’re just slowly rotting away believing in absolute gobbledygook.

Either way, you should stop listening to other people.

NO ONE gets what they want following others, even if this “guru” is reading your unique personality type, even if theres truth to what they’re saying, you have to follow yourself.

The risk of pursuing the good life is letting go of certainty.

That’s the real reason we like all this personality psychology bullshit so much.

Who doesn’t want fame, wealth, and a life of pleasure? Anything that confirms that is HARD to not follow….

…but nothing can, and deep down everyone knows it.

That’s why we’re all restless, binging series, consuming media nonstop.

You don’t want to sit and feel it.

REAL PAIN is right there, when you realize you’re wasting life.

But there’s good news, its not hard to gain a completely different (& better) life.

I wasted YEARS believing, but it only took a couple dedicated months of action to jumpstart an entirely new career, life, etc.

It’s ironic.

If you knew your fate, you’d never fulfill it. Not because it’s awesome or tragic, but because by knowing, you lose the exploration and that’s the point of it all anyway.

The fact that you want a destination is proof you’re living in the wrong movie.

So, stop with the input.

Move around. Try shit. Explore.

Play the game instead of watching players, and eventually, you’ll have something better than your daily horoscope description.

#FoolFwd

Sit and wait for fate and you lose everything…

It’s in every single one of us— the need to look up at the stars.

At heart, we’re all believers and round and round we go into believing whatever “thing” offers us peace.

From a fat man invading your house in December to the idea that life happens more than once, it doesn’t matter.

We need to believe.

But this does come with disadvantages, turns out, believing isn’t so harmless. Actually, it’s what decides the entire trajectory of your life.

Here’s how I see it:

Believe in fate and you default to whatever life decides to hand you or create your own legend and watch reality bend to you.

I used to obsess with my destiny– thinking about why I’m here, what’s my purpose, what am I called to do? I grew miserable AF thinking about this shit and not so ironically, the more I thought about it– the larger the gap between me and whatever it was I thought I wanted.

Following that, I went through my nihilistic goth phase– where everything felt meaningless because I wasn’t the special chosen one my mom led me to believe.

Somewhere between bouncing from hope and despair, the aftertaste of wisdom kicked-in and then I realized its whatever the hell you decide.

Whether there is or isn’t something out there for you is entirely irrelevant, your job is direction not destination.

You need to focus on MOVING.

Not tomorrow, today.

Where you go actually doesn’t matter, just that you are going. Something always turns into something more, but nothing guarantees no more or less than what you started with… nothing.

The point is: too much of YOU doesn’t help you much.

Quit obsessing over me, me, me and refocus on where me oughta be. That’s how you get somewhere you’d rather be.

The choice is always YOURS.

If nothings worked out, make some new mistakes. Try something radically different, forget yourself for a year and “act as if”

You’ll be surprised where it’ll take you and at least you won’t be where you began.

#FOOLSWALK

“Trust your gut”

Bet you’ve heard that a lot, and looking back, sure– there were tons of times it was almost psychic like how true it ended up being.

But relying on your gut gets tricky, for one, it’s not something you can summon in times of need.

Ever notice when you’re feeling poopy– tired, overworked, apathetic, you can’t just go “C’mon dammnit, GUIDE ME HIGHER SELF” ?

I mean you could, but that rumble isn’t a sign of anything beyond you needing a snack break.

The problem with the gut– intuition, knowing without knowing, the problem with all of it is it’s unreliable.

Not just with its inconsistency, but at times (if not most times) it’s completely wrong.

Let me explain that for a sec–

I consider myself pretty intuitive. To this day, I still get the unexplainable dreams followed by deja vu moments, the itchy palms before a payday, and the ringing of the ears before a phone call.

On top of that, I’ve always been a believer of the weird.

I don’t know, maybe my ancestors played with spells or maybe we all have this voodoo juju crap in our dna– but when it comes to the material world, this shit is useless and you should leave it fast.

What they don’t tell you about the gut– it hurts more than it helps.

Human beings need reasons, and a lot times, thats what that gut is… a reason, an excuse, usually something to justify the stupid action we’re about to commit.

“I woulda bit my tongue, but they needed to know that was stupid…”

I’m all for adding spice to life. The unexplainable is cool but it has its place, where a lot of us get stuck is we start believing TOO much, and as result– we limit our own free will.

If I believe I’m meant to be a movie director, I close myself off from other options– ones that might be (and in this case are) more suited for me.

If my gut (or delusional brain) play this same recurring fantasy where I live in hollywood hills, race a porsche around the midnight streets of LA, and do big money deals– I’m inclined to ONLY want that.

You want it, but is that what’s right for you?

Given your actual personality and who you are, is that you?

See, I’ve since learned that I only wanted the fantasy not the actual thing. Because in my free time, am I learning about directing? Shit No. Am I making movies? I exist in commercial breaks. But I want it for some reason? Yeah—- you want the ESCAPE.

That’s your gut.

If you want to get ahead, live a life that actually has meaning to you– forget all that legacy bullshit, you have to lift the veil.

We’re all under it.

We’re all intuitive, believers of something more, we all desire better lives.

But the only way to get it is to understand your everyday existence comes from you not for you.

You made this, and the only way to get out and unstuck is to change. Before you can change, you need to see what you’re like.

Why you do the things you do, who the hell are you?

Because if you want success, you’ll need to match your nature, with the right nature.

An environment that rewards who you are.

More on that later, till then–

#FOOLFWD