I remember having all these conditions growing up– self-imposed rules, to reach my potential (like no dating, fun having, or play). I romanticized life, and so it never matched my own ideal— which made me miserable.
Here’s the irony: The more I let go and opened myself up to the world, the clearer things became— and naturally came together.
My brain does this thing, where as soon as it sees something as potentially useful to my life and success, it wants to marry it. It wants me to cut everything out of my life that’s not that– and go solo into this one thing.
That sounds like focus, but it really isn’t. See, it also shades everything I see as people are against me. Loved ones too. And that, I can only win by destroying my life as I know it and isolating myself.
It’s my way of forcing my own hand into some kind of solitary-success-confinement.
Has it ever led to good results? HAAA. The only thing this ever did was make me depressed and angry at the world.
That, AND it prematurely optimizes the wrong goals, so you play out the wrong thing and miss what was actually for you.
If I had to give younger me advice, or you if you’re struggling with this– it’s let go. Open yourself to anything, let yourself sees what comes your way, what sparks your interest, and what projects you’d like to involve yourself with.
It works out better than you ever could make it.
It’s bizarre but its universal law.
I enjoy writing scripts, and now I’m going down this path— lots of opportunity. But just like with scripts, so too with life.
It all writes itself, when you play.
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