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What If your Career is not your Purpose?

What if you pass the age of 25,35,45… and still haven’t found the thing you want to do for the rest of your life?

Maybe, and not necessarily, but maybe your career isn’t your purpose— and if you understand this, you’ll free yourself after finishing this blog.

I’ve ALWAYS wanted my one and only since I can remember.

A dream role that I commit myself to for all of life, that inspires me, fills me with love, joy, human spirit, oh— and above everything, pulls me out of the banality of existence.

Intuitively, I was saving myself for this dream role. I’d chase opportunities and as soon as they failed to fill my internal purpose bucket (meaning I no longer loved them the same) I’d leave then repeat the search cycle.

Always starting, never following through.

But I realized as time went on, it wasn’t the dream job I was looking for.

I just didn’t want to feel empty.

I wanted to be connected to something more important than myself— and that thing is purpose.

You decide your purpose, and it can come from anything you choose, not just your career.

Most people who romanticize career don’t real give a shit about their jobs, it’s the purpose they get from the role itself that they find fulfilling.

Start with your purpose if you want to end the search and find your meaning.

-Fool

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The Process of being Reborn

Life is cyclical.

Before I became a writer, I crashed and burned.

Broke.

Directionless.

Left then returned.

All I had was a new story and that was enough to inspire a new life, that made me worthy enough to pull the sword from the stone— and pick up the pen.

Failure made me a writer.

What will failure make of me now?

Stop focusing on each step.

Failure is a rung on the ladder, use it to reach your destination.

-fool

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WHOrU?

Self concept is easily the most important thing in life. A solid identity and you’ll have better relationships, a fulfilling career, and that forever empty most people struggle with?

Not you.

Your life will feel meaningful— which, if you wondered what that feels like, think of a time where you desired nothing but the present moment you were living in.

Self concept is THE MEANING of our lives and most of us have one created entirely by accident.

Ours is a combination of things from parents, teachers, past experiences, etc. We have a bunch of voices in our minds, not our own, telling us what to do and who to be.

But If you decide to rewrite your story, you take back control over your life in that instant.

You didn’t make what you are. You need to sit honestly with it to understand it, reflect on it, get to know it by asking questions without judgement, looking at patterns in character, quirks you have, likes and dislikes.

And with an honest eye looking at what you’re like, YOU get to decide what it all means.

Decide why your character is here. What is their story? What is their life all about and what are they being called to do?

Then, do that.

-Fool

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How Vampires Reflect without Mirrors?

We’re quick to adopt successful peoples routines without question.

You hear about some millionaire sleeping for 3 hours then meditating for 2, it’s easier for your brain to accept that as an option of improvement.

….Because they’re successful, we assume whatever weird shit they did to get there must work, classic human thinking error.

The thing that taps talent and potential out of your own reserves isn’t the same from person to person.

I write between midnight and 4am. That’s my best writing, if I had say, I’d pick a time more “normal” but that’s when vampires write.

The point is this— if something works for you, do more of it. Don’t question it, don’t trade it to copy someone else, lean into your weird.

And drop off everything else.

-Fool

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Who needs permission?

Even the rebellious types, we’re all looking for some confirmation, a sign, something that assures us we’re going in the right direction.

It’s human nature, we want to know where we’re going but to get there, calls for surrender or faith.

How does one practice faith and why should they?

Your uneasiness comes from lack of purpose— you haven’t made sense of your story yet, and that causes you to thrash about looking for something greater, chasing one idea til another outshines it.

Never committing, always seeking.

Irony is, if you stuck to ONE thing, regardless of how you felt about it but you saw it through, you’d fulfill more of what you dream about than that perfect idea you’re hoping to find.

Purpose is something YOU write.

YOU decide it.

It’s intentional not accidental. The moment you CHOOSE your meaning and live it, life unfolds as a mirror to match your new reality.

So, pick your pill.

–Fool

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Questions for Answers

Ask most people what they want on any given day and they rattle off goals as vague as fortune teller readings.

The truth is, most people don’t have a clue what they’re after.

What we DO know is what we DON’T want.

Ask anyone what they’ll never do again, what they refuse to allow into their life, what they despise, and suddenly they’re as clear and specific as can be.

If you want to know whether you’re moving towards something special or capping your own talent, ask yourself are you making decisions based on fear or opportunity?

Open up dialogue with yourself by asking questions.

-Fool

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Make new mistakes

If you could watch your character’s movie— you’d probably be sick of all the reruns that play during “new” seasons and episodes.

We revert to the same things in cycles.

We make the same kinds of mistakes.

For me it’s moving from place to thing to place, for you it may be entertaining a business that you never start, whatever it is, here’s the point:

This year, make new mistakes.

Go for something, be different, act different, BREAK your patterns.

For the next year, live differently.

-Fool

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Where R You Running To?

You’re looking for the right role, your role in the divine drama of life.

Compulsive seeking is motivated by running away from the boring and meaningless parts of existence.

We run to fill our emptiness with things and experiences but neither can fill the void.

It’s only when people feel they are living as actors in their divine drama of life, that they then lose the need to “seek” a better life because only individual purpose gives meaning to human life.

Everything else is illusion compared with that one thing, that your life is meaningful.

Most suffer from anxiety and depression because their life makes no sense. To overcome this, we must find a way to justify our own existence.

To stop running, connect to your purpose.

-fool

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Identical Twins, Not Life?

Everyday you make seemingly harmless decisions– whether or not to clean your room, watch a movie, hangout with friends, study, exercise, etc.

Most of our lives are monotonous and our routine ends up driving the direction of our days.

But have you ever stopped and thought about where this leads? Sure. Most of it is insignificant, making your bed won’t teach you business skills— but it does teach you to switch drivers.

See, each time we’re faced with making a decision, we’re presented the opportunity of CHOOSING our driver.

You can default to the worthless feeling, internal child, who is eternally bold and can’t build anything because they can’t focus.

OR—

You can elect the overachiever, who will just do it, because it all needs to be done.

We all have these two drivers, which for the most part look and sound alike, but the results each can bring you are vastly different— an un-identical life.

Before YOU (the watcher of the two) decides what to do with your life, practice CHOOSING the overachiever.

This DRIVER will fill in the gap and help you get to the place where you can be effective.

-Fool

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Fly your Cape(able)

You don’t know how you did it… it’s almost like something from the outside possessed you, but in that moment, nothing could stop you.

Look back at your life, and you’ll have these moments.

Moments where you needed to make something happen, had no other way out, and so you did.

The only thing that separates you as an unstoppable high performer from you as a fearful insecure person, is attitude.

Embracing YOUR obstacles, facing the challenge, it’s just a choice you have to make.

Choose to accept your adventure, dungeons, dragons, and all, and you can tap into that same higher power again.

-fool

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Live in Truth

For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be more.

I didn’t know what more was, what it looked like, or even what it meant.

I just knew there was more to me, more to life, more to being in this world than the way I was— so I chased what I thought could be more.

I started with friends, then moved onto desire, then just moved around changing cities, I felt like more was plentiful, abundant, and easily available to me.

What I couldn’t know is which more was mine?

I ended up chasing the result of more and not the process. I didn’t really want success, I wanted the result of it.

I didn’t really want the things I was doing— I wanted the promise of changing my boring life that they could make.

I didn’t read books, I chose covers.

Living like that you start to lose contact with the world because the things that make life rich aren’t MORE of everything, they’re less of the best.

The best is what truly suits you— your truth.

Few friends but deep connections is more meaningful than thousands of strangers.

Being great at one thing over kinda decent at plenty is far more meaningful.

The rat race isn’t “working a job” –it’s chasing things you don’t give a shit about and ignoring the most important— connection.

Connect to your truth and live it.

This is the stability, the fulfillment, and the connection to the world you crave deep down.

Truth is just a way of being.

What are you really about? LIVE it.

-Fool

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Follow to get lost (solution seeking irony)

Wanna know the worst thing you can do when you’re looking for your next move?

Follow the advice of others.

It’s a strange phenomena but one that proves true every time.

When I went through my self discovery phase, I wasted the bulk of my time trying on advice from people who were “successful” because I thought their achievements could lead to mine.

Truth is, following others only leads you away from yourself.

DON’T LISTEN TO ANYONE.

Walk your own walk. If you’re lost, be lost, figure it out yourself.

Strangely enough, this is a far shorter path to the life you want than all the people who you think are helping you.

See what you do when you have no instructions.

-Fool

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Bored or Too Involved ?

There are a lot of boredom defenders on the internet.

They’ll say things like, “creativity is born through boredom” or “better to be bored than busy” but before you allow yourself to sit and meditate about nothing, how good are you with extra time?

Most of us suck.

Boredom is actually an attitude, I’d know, I’m always bored.

It means you’re barely involved in the present, it means you’re escaping— whether that be from reality, current circumstances, family, idk— but you’re choosing to be somewhere else rather than here.

The problem with this is what it does to your natural joy threshold.

You want to be captivated instead of engaged and then end up looking to be entertained rather than present.

This is the depression, anxiety, and piss away your life, formula. Boredom is another option for participating in waste.

If you don’t have a thing to give a damn about, choose one. Just get overly involved in something, be about it, learn to dance with each part of life.

At least this way, the moments you make become something memorable. And the life you live isn’t one of a passive observer.

-Fool

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Honest Delusion

I spent two weeks doing some psychology introspection BS and walked away feeling clinically unsuccessful.

There’s utility in delusion, so long as you’re honest about it.

Assuming you can still learn, grow, develop, and be a responsible human being– believing in the fiction part of your life is actually helpful.

Every belief has utility, but most of our beliefs unknowingly teach us to give away our own power.

Is something bad? Or is it yours?

You have the task of being this individual, with the unique problems they have, why hate it? Why compare?

What else could it mean?

What would give you power, joy, enthusiasm?

What gets you moving?

Choose that.

-Fool

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Sit on your hands

Sometimes the best move to make, is no move at all.

We get restless, then we mess with shit.

Messing with shit is how you lose…

…sometimes you win too, but not mostly.

The unfortunate part behind this phenomena is the things we mess with are usually the things that are working fine and probably didn’t need to be touched.

The truth is, it’s not what you lack that’s holding you back— it’s something you have or do, a habit you haven’t kicked.

Take mine— boredom.

I prematurely jump ships, abandon islands, etc. all because I need to find something that doesn’t exist.

Whatever you’re looking for, ask yourself is it from a place of weakness or strength? Would you take this action if you were strong, successful, the person you wanted to be, etc.?

-Fool

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Alters: How to become WHO you need

Each of us has our drivers (or alternate voices)–internal judgements that guide our behavior.

For most people, these voices are weak and can easily be ignored or shut off.

For ultra successful artists, entrepreneurs, athletes, etc. these Alters gain a life of their own, being channeled and brought out for specific activities.

Mike Tyson had “Iron Mike”

Beyonce “Sasha Fierce”

You might think of this as role play, or make believe, but the truth is it’s easier to build up and believe in someone else than ourselves— and our minds are good at it.

If you aren’t strong enough, if you aren’t enough for the task at hand, bring out your Alter and let them fight for you.

Forming a relationship with this energy can only help you, there’s a reason you can hear the voice— try to grant it what it wants, safely and productively.

-fool

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All you’ll ever need to win at life…

“Whatever one has within oneself but does not live, grows against one”

If you aren’t happy with your life or don’t feel so great about yourself, it can be traced back to this gap.

The gap between what you present and what you actually do/are like when no ones watching.

If you look dramatically different on the inside from the out– this gap is huge, and you need to close it.

The only way to do that is by ACTING on the things you say you value/do/believe.

So, if you want real change. Make a list of what you value and then see how much of that you actually live– or go against by living how you currently are.

Start there, start doing things in accordance with what you admire and respect and DON’T try to rationalize it.

You don’t have a choice— either live these out or suffer in hell, stuck hating the poster of yourself you pretend to be.

-fool

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Gut Health & Trusting a Dream?

Following your instincts usually leads to authentic living, but that’s assuming they’ve been calibrated correctly.

Here’s the problem with your gut feeling:

It comes up in reaction to fear, too.

It’s not just intuitive, it’s protective.

And anytime you’re afraid —it’s going to shout at you to try and protect you. BUT, The best opportunities are on the other side of that fear.

If you’re afraid (when it comes to opportunity and change), lean in because your work is there.

-Fool

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Shed light on pain to relieve it

Fools–

In searching for your truth, you’ll be tempted to listen to others, especially those who seemingly reached a destination you desire.

You have to reject this.

You have to rebel.

Most people are fragmented selves of themselves.

They’re not whole, so they feel unengaged, empty, sad, and they’re easier to influence.

To become whole, you need to let everything surface. I record video blogs to myself when in different mental states– this allows me to better see and understand what’s inside.

I recommend writing/ and video as best methods for doing this.

Shed light on pain to relieve it.

-Fool

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Ad Vice: Fighting your advertising addiction

On the one hand, I want to listen and learn from so many different people… but on the other, I know I can’t without being negatively influenced.

Even if the advice you’re listening to is good, it’s not YOU.

You need to sit in truth. You need to know what would make a compelling life and how YOU, being who you are– strengths, weaknesses, and character, how does that person achieve their desire?

We’re adaptable but not necessarily changeable.

Understanding the core of your character is how you can hack life and win.

When you listen to others, gurus/mentors, you risk ignoring your truth to adopt theirs. If they achieved what you’re genuinely after (meaning you were already pursuing that goal before you found them), then fine. Maybe hear what they have to say.

Otherwise the best thing to do is stop feeding your ad- vice, and make your own way.

-Fool

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